Fra la la la la~<3 ♥

Seribu tahun

2012-01-20T14:39:00.001Z

A song for him who refuses to listen to it at all times~ lols..

Absolutely love this version of it! <3

Footprints

2012-01-11T14:24:00.006Z

I've been.. Sad these days.. :(

I can't really differentiate whether this sadness.. Is caused by my monthly mood swing~ Or just the circumstances and situations that I'm in right now, that I see right now..

On the brighter side, I finally roughly got a hold of my monthly mood swing! haha.. Score one for understanding myself more! Yes at times I don't understand me.. xp Well.. The swing goes like this~ Usually before my monthly visit from my "aunt" or.. Strawberry~ or Tsunami~ or whatever you nickname it.. I tend to get a lil grumpy and easily irritated.. than.. I'll be back to my normal self during the "visit" and after the "visit" usually I'll feel.... saddddd and perhaps with some lack of confidence and glooooomy~ haha.. Complicated much? I think so too.. xp

No wonder they say ladies are complicated.. Yeaaaaa.. thanks to the waves of feelings and... hormones! But its important to me to know why I feel the way I do. I guess it helps me manage them better, since I don't have a good management of feelings.. I hate not knowing why I feel the way I feel.. Thus the struggle for me has always been an internal one.. >.<

It's just times like this when I feel... So.. Alone.. Not the lonely kind of alone.. Its the kind that I feel that there's no one who can be there for me.. I can't expect some one to be with me 24/7 as well.. Family, friends.. Have their own responsibilities, this I understand. But at that moment I really needed someone, or at least something.. So I flipped to facebook.. lols! So sweat right.. haha.. Stupid facebook.. It contains people! I didn't really know why I went there maybe I was just looking for some "connection" to humans.. Then I saw it.. A post from 1 of my friends which said:

The Lord replied,''...during those times of trial and suffering when you see only one set of footprints, it was then I carried you.'' - Footprints

Oh I tell you.. It went straight to the heart.. And I just couldn't hold my tears any longer. You see God is really amazing isn't He.. He just knows when to make things "pop out".. And when to affirm me, to keep me together.. He can use anything.. Even Facebook.. To remind me of His promises.. Of all the 100 display messages across my facebook page and at that particular moment, it had to be the first one I saw.. Coincidence? I don't think so.. God is so real..! I am glad that no matter what happens I know there is always hope in this God that I love, this God that loves me more than I could ever understand.. Loves us more than we could ever understand.. This hope I have, I share it to any one who reads this! XD Its available for all, just need to ask! :) Not from me of course.. From God! XP

Here's a nice song too! XD

The New Year

2012-01-01T14:30:00.007Z

A new year is coming! Another good time to start everything afresh ha... Also another good time to reflect on what has been done for this year.. To bring it to a "close".. hehe.. Hmmm.. actually the closing should have been done yesterday.. . .. .. .. .. Oh well~ xp

Lots and lots and lots and lots of things happened this year.. haha.. Well at least.. It is to me.. hehe..

I've learnt so much and I've experienced so much! There was like 2 major transitions in my life.. No wait.. 3 major transitions! O.O Talk about cramping everything together ha.. And come to think of it.. they happen kinda sudden.. Kinda surprising in a way.. haha..

First of all, a new person came into my life this year.. hehe.. No its not a new baby brother or sister. Its a new... Relationship<3 XD Hmmmm... After looking back.. I've realised.. I started my relationship in the weirdest way.. lols.. Extremely weird.. haha.. We've kinda like broke the new-couple-must-see-each-other-everyday thingy.. XD Coz right after we started I had to fly to UK to finish off my studies.. and He had to be in Singapore to work. Questions like, is this really the right time to start? Can we really make it apart? How long would it even last? would constantly pop up in my mind.. Like.. HELLO! Its long distance! It's kinda like a big deal to me.. haha.. I like to keep people close! I cry when they leave! T.T lols.. I seriously didn't think that I would even try a long distance relationship.. I must be crazy when I made that decision..

Even throughout this year, more like few months.. hehe.. It was journey full of surprises, excitement, joy, butterflies, laughter, doubts, fears and tears.. It wasn't an easy journey.. But it was one that I would never exchange for anything else. Though it takes the effort from both of us to continue on I'm really thankful for the support and blessing from my spiritual parents, mentor and close friends.. Especially in the beginning.. Despite wherever this relationship may take me, I believe it is good to start things right, and I'm more than happy to involve others in it.. Of course, naturally would be with those whom I have higher regards to and closer ones le.. hehe.. I knew I could always go back to them for advice or.. complains! XP

But if one day, if things didn't turn out right and if you were to ask me would I let him go.. It would break my heart, but yes I will let him go. When I decided on that decision it actually reminded me of God's love for us. God's love is so much more than any human being could ever love yet He gave us with a free will, to choose. To walk in God's love or away from it. It must have caused God a major heartbreak to see us turning away yet He loved so much that He was not willing to put us on a leash, to tie us down, to control, to force. I wanted to love like that, to love like how God would have loved, with the little that I can and have I just wanted to work towards it. The great pain to have let a loved one go would be so small compared to what God must have felt. Yet God never held grudges of the hurt caused as people would, but is always waiting for us to come back with arms open wide. That is just the awesome God that we have! Great in power, almighty, creator of everything! Yet could love someone as small as you and me. His love is open to all, for all, its merely just a choice. And I'm glad I've made mine. :)

Next... I graduated!!! XD Though my graduation will only come next year.. I can't believe I actually went to UK to study! Although only for 3 months, xp that's like the longest time I've been away from home and family.. And though I did kinda plan for it, it didn't really seemed like it could happen! lols.. Awesome experience!!!! Met great people, seen great places~ Had terrible assignments! xp But it was just awesome~ I cooked!!! And kinda got.. More independent compared to the previous me~ keke.. Than I got to experience different cultures and all, its really different when you actually stay there for some time compared to just visiting the place during the holidays. It was scary yet awesome! lols.. weird ha.. And the weather there.. Freaking cold in the beginning! KONONYA summer!!! haha.. But we began to love the weather there as we got used to it..XD and also knew how to dress for the weather. Made things so much better.. hehe..

Than after 3 months, its back in Malaysia~ Thus I was than thrown into... The working world!! No wait.. More like.. The jobless-people-world... haha.. Been floating for like almost a month before having a job.. Now I'm still trying to get use to my new "timetable".. From time to time I will feel I have no life~ haha.. Go to work early.. Come home late.. >.< But yea.. I'm hanging on.. Trying to fit in.. New environment, new friends, new "culture".. I shall try to learn as much as I can. Gambate to me! >.<

Another major transition that I'm still currently going through is taking care of my CG, as a leader. O.O Something that needs hard work, passion, and effort. Which I am currently still working towards.. >.< Not gonna be easy, but its the joy that I feel from seeing people come together or making a difference, that keeps me going I suppose. Bestie asked me what my new year resolution would be.. The HORROR! New Year ResolutionS!!!! xp I replied, not to vivid yet but something along the lines of impacting lives. Life is just too meaningless to live it just for yourself. I may not be perfect, may have many flaws even but with the little goodness that I have I wish to impart it on them.. Teehee! Just as the leaders before have imparted theirs on me. Pass it on!!!! XP

Soooo.. Cheers to a better year up ahead!! God bless~!

A Dedication

2011-12-08T16:00:00.010Z

I would like to dedicate this blog to a very very very special person :)

No! It is not you if you're the reader and you're perasan-ing it right now.. XP

Unless...

You're born on the 10th of December in the year 1989..

Your name starts with a J and ends with an E..

You love and own a scare-dy crazy furry cat..

And.. You are currently stuck in Malacca now now~

Yes, than I'm talking to you!

Lil Miss Joye Ter Ji-xi~ XD

The bestest bestest friend in the whole world!!! XD (Lols, I sound just like a lil girls.. XP) BFF's!!! XDDDD Maybe we should do those friendship bracelets again!!!! (more childish feats)

*Ahem* But first.. I must say the most important message...............

THE MOST important message..

Happy Birthday!!!!!!!!!! XDDDDDD *supposed to be up on the 10th of Dec!!!

NUUUUU..* So i guess its belated now? T.T

Oh my gosh... You're such a big girl now!!! *sob sob* XP As if I'm very old.. haha..

Just want to say thank you for walking the path of life with me for 8 years.. :) I treasure the friendship and support you have endlessly and generously lavished over me.. XD

I think I should actually thank Wai Ling first.. haha.. Thank you Wai Ling! If you are ever reading this.. After I've though long and hard.. You know le.. My short memory is one of my biggest flaws.. XP I think she was the one that initially introduced us.. And also to thank the bus stop outside Pudu.. lols.. Don't know why when I think back of our schooling days that seemed to be the 1st few times that I had my initial conversations with you.. haha..

After that faith just weaved us together and we end up sitting beside each other.. Attending CF together.. Going for lunches together.. Gossiping together.. Etc etc etc.. Hmmmm.. I kinda like how we weren't always in the same group together yet still managed to be close to each other.. haha.. Like we were in different "rumah sukan", different "persatuan", different "badan beruniform".. haha. Think the only thing we joined in common was.. CF.. lols.. errr.. And errr... Same class? O.o haha..

You're also such a big hearted, kind and nice person .. With a touch of your own personality.. Although annoyed you still always find space to accommodate my nonsense.. Such as my crazy smiley drawing rampage.. Or my artistic portrayal of you in my drawings.. Or childish whining's.. Or weird nickname giving.. Or disgusting acts I show you every now and than.. Haha.. Oh and speaking Chinese to you! haha! Ah memories~ XP I hope I don't give you nightmares... lols..

And we had our moments of silliness as well.. xp

Though we were at times the "outcasted" ones.. I think you would know what I mean.. XP We somehow always remain contented.. As long as we have each other! haha. Talk nonsense whole day long.. And laugh and laugh and laugh.. Until somebody~ Looks like a tomato... Somebody la ha~ XP

Then came the time when we finally fought our final battle in Secondary school, better known as... S.P.M! You started form 6, and I attended college.. We went our separate ways.. Staying quite far from each other I kinda thought we would probably just "end" like that.. But little did I know, every time I see you again its like I'm with the same Joye I knew 8 years ago..

Though we have changed in many ways, have grown mature, even have different mind sets, been through many different experiences.. Our friendship still remains the same, or perhaps even gone deeper..I guess if you ask me whether you've changed a lot, I'd probably say yes, all of us change all the time.. Whether for the better or for the worst, is for you to judge yourself.. XP To me, you'll always be "JOYE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" (Some expressions are just too hard to describe lols..)

And its just really nice to have a girlfriend which I feel that I can just be transparent to and comfortable to be myself. Knowing that that person accepts you with no strings attached. And you have the freedom to just be yourself without being judged. That is exactly how I feel when I spend time with you. :) Though we don't always see eye to eye, and we do argue over things, you have undoubtedly forced secured a place in my heart.. XD

For those who feel some chill in their spine after reading this.. No I am not a lesbian.. lols..

Last but not least.. I just want to say sorry.. Hehe.. For any times, perhaps even many times that I've hurt you or made you sad or took you for granted.. Me being me I guess I'm just too blur sometimes to notice my own stupidity.. hehe.. Do forgive me.. *Looks up with big goggly eyes* And I'm really blessed to have you in my life. :)

May the road ahead of you be filled with joy and blessings! XD Though tough times may come, perserve and be strong kay! I'll be supporting you all the way!! Go go go go!!! And you're never alone.. Even if you feel the whole world has abandoned you or cannot be there with you, God can. :) If there's anything just remember God can. God will. God is, already there.

My bestest BFF in the world! XD <3

I must learn..

2011-11-27T18:26:00.003Z

I must learn... To not always take things in my own hands..

I must learn.. That not all things are in my control..

I must learn.. To bring all things to prayer..

I must learn.. To trust and surrender all things to the Lord..

I must learn.. To partner with the Holy Spirit

I must learn.. Patience and self control..

I must learn.. Better emotional management..

I must learn.. I cannot change people, only God can..

I must learn.. To be in someone else's shoe..

I must learn.. To love when I don't feel like it..

I must learn.. To do what is right, not what feels right..

I must learn.. That I cannot please everybody..

I must learn.. to let go and not waste my precious emotions on.. nonsense!

So many things to learn in just a few days.. I mean.. In just one day... The realization of it all... O.O I have much to learn..

Mundane

2011-11-04T05:52:00.005Z

Yeap.. That shall be the word to describe life these days~ @.@ I'm feeling my lazy bones cracking inside my lazy body.. If I was in a cartoon form I would imagine my bones being surrounded by spider webs and dusts inside my body.. And I'm starting to get bored of the sims already.. xp And bored of looking at the same jobs that Jobs DB and JobStreet keep sending to me.. lols..

Say hello to Spongebob~ Yes he is my interview file.. hehe.. In one of my interviews.. Waiting for the interviewer.. Waiting for their call after that is the most @.@ part.. Perhaps I should wait no more and start applying for more~

Maybe I should start looking for jobs via newspaper~ Probably something new to scan at.. :S And I should be actively searching for jobs.. Right.. ~.~ Anyways.. I'll be going to KK later~! I should be feeling excited.. But somehow I'm not as excited as I should be.. He he.. he.. Hmmm.. But nevertheless I'm still happy I'll finally get to see the Pastor Noah and family (especially the new born twins!!! Well, they're not so new born anymore.. Noooo.. I hope they still can fit into the clothes I bought them.. o.o). Gagagaga...

So I guess this is just a final post before I fly off~ hehe.. And I haven't finish packing.. ~.~ Time passes so slowly these days.. And I feel so zombie-ish most of the time.. Here's a random picture of some kitty cat picture I saw on my way back from an interview! XP

Oh and I have a new cat now.. The orangy one went missing when I came back from UK.. Huhu.. T.T Than out of nowhere (actually he's from my backyard) came a new white kitty cat~ Called him bunny coz he kinda resembles one.. He's white.. has a bob tail.. The only thing lacking is a pair of long ears..

He's one lazy sleepy kitty.. lols.. And.. He knows how to use a pillow.. =.=''' This is like not only once lo.. Many many times! And he has all sorts of sleeping positions.. @.@ Maybe I should change his name to lazybum instead.. I'll show you more of his sleeping stunts some other time ya.. In the mean time I should really get back to packing.. hehe.. Tooodlessss~

5 weeks already?!

2011-10-14T11:00:00.004+01:00

Oh my gosh! I just noticed that I've not blogged for 5 weeks d! lols.. One of my longest writer's block..? Well not really considered a writer's block.. Since... Well.. No real effort was even made to try to blog something.. haha.. Wonder if its something good or bad? @.@

Anyways~ My latest updates~~~

1. I'm back in Malaysia!!! Hopefully you guys already know that.. o.o

2. I've graduated!!! Woohoooo!!! No more studying!!! No more assignments!!!!

3. I'm currently jobless... T.T To make it sound better I shall use.. I am unemployed~ And currently also hunting for jobs..

4. I've..... Finished Spongebob Squarepants SEASON 7!!!! Wooohooo!! Ok.. That was random.. Just in case you don't know.. No.. I haven't watched season 1-6 ok.. I'm not that crazy.. haha.. But I am considering it.. hehehehehehe...

So... Yeap! That's it from me.. For now.. I guess I'm back to blogging sphere~ Hooohooo~ I GUESS... ehehehehehe...

7th day

2011-09-08T22:10:00.003+01:00

Wooohooo~~~

Its the 7th day of my Eurotrip~~~ haha.. What's a Eurotrip..? Well basically its just a tour that I joined after my studies to travel around before I end up getting caught in slavery by WORK! O.O!!!! Nahhh.. Its not really that kua cheong la.. haha..

In the tour I'm gonna be travelling around europe, 10 countries in 14 days~ If you ask me.. Yes that's a crazy rush.. Why did I join..? Coz its the easiest way to "travel".. haha.. Just follow the tour leader~ And everybody.. Like EVERYBODY just keeps saying.. "Go la~ travel la~ Before you start work!" or "You might not have that chance again~" Or "Since you're there just go for it le~"

Well to be honest.. Travelling is not really my thing.. @.@ Ughhhh... Especially when I have to take care of myself most of the time.. Lols.. Yes I don't consider myself independent.. Sadly so.. Haha.. But I am trying to be one! Well.. More independent le.. I did spend 3 months of studying away from my family.. I really never thought I'll be able to do that.. If you really know me.. You would know why.. lols.. The packing for this trip is more stressful than my exams.. lols.. Once I packed till 3plusplus am.. Heck~ I didn't even stayed up this late for my exam! Crazy..

Anyways.. Yes I find travelling really tiring.. Especially this time when I have to be stuck in the bus for quite some time.. ARghhh.. My butt.. my knee.. Arghhh.. But friends and silly stuff makes the trip fun and also frustrating sometimes... lols.. I liked something my friend once said..

"Everything we do seems to be intense!

Intense course! (We had to finish up a year's course in 3 months)

Intense ball! (Our ball is on the same day as our exam.. It finishes at 12pm, we have to be in the hall at like 5 something!)

Intense packing! (we had like 1 or 2 days to pack for a 14day trip)

Intense trip! (Travelling to 10 countries in 14 days)

Intense lunch/dinner! (We had to finish our meal within like 5 to 10 mins that time)

ARghh!!! Intense everything!!!!" Lols..

We're driving ourselves crazy..!

Nevertheless.. Somehow.. I still miss home.. T.T lols.. Sometimes I wished I could go home faster.. Its so much more comfortable at home.. Where I could laze around~ Hug all my soft toys again~ Eat home cook meals! T.T And I'm sick of eating sandwiches and pizzas and spaghetti.. That's like.. The only food here!! ARghhh.. I'm going to like stay away from those when I'm back!!!

Anyways.. Back to the trip.. haha.. So far I've been to France~ Italy~ Switzerland~ and Vatican~ I didn't even know Vatican is a country~ Lols.. Apparently.. its the 3rd smallest country in the world.. And I've only been on that country.. For like ermmm... Less than 1 hour.. lols.. Its just beside Rome.. XD

Opsss... Battery running low.. >.< Cacat hotel.. Have to be at the lobby to online.. Ishhh.. Somemore have to rebut for the line..! Only 2 or 3 people can online.. =.=""" Had to wait till my battery reached 49% only I can online.. Cacaaaaaaaaaaattttttttnnnnnneeeeeessssssssss...

Anyways~ To all my lovely friends in Malaysia.. Take good care of yourselves and.. Wait for my return!!!!!!!!! MWAHAHAHAH!!!! I'll be back soon to create some havoc again!!!!!!!!!!!!! XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD AGAGAGAGAGAGA..

Toooooooooooooodlesssssssss~~~!!!

Nail tutorials!

2011-08-18T14:14:00.004+01:00

Ahhhh!!! So cute!!!
Must try it when I'm freeeee!!!!! XD

Dream troubles

2011-08-07T23:23:00.004+01:00

Here I am.. Blogging again when I should be doing my thesis~ Darnnnn.. I just can't stop doing this.. x.x Ughhh.. Dear "diary"~ Today was such an unfruitful day~ Bufffff.... *mumble grumbles* Mmmm.. Went to church~ Did a little shopping.. Washed my clothes~ Cleaned my room~ Arrange some stuff~ Finished the whole 2nd season of Glee (Which is only the remaining 2 episodes).. and poof! Its night time already.. Bummerrrr~

Anyways.. After I finished the whole season 2 of Glee I find its quite nice actually.. It's more emotional~ I guess.. Maybe I'm more emotional.. I don't know.. haha.. Well I would recommend it.. For discerning audiences.. haha.. Can't just take in everything you see.. Just because other people are doing it doesn't always mean its alright to do it. Its good to have a clear value of where you stand so that you don't just blindly think everything's ok.. It's good to learn to discern and just pick up the so called good stuff.. haha.. Everything is permissible but not everything is beneficial~

Well I think I've learned something from this Rachel Berry character.. haha.. Some crazy super confident girl who is all over herself but who is really talented.. Though she is always over confident, selfish and always wants to be in the spotlight, something that I admire in her character is that she dreams big dreams! And she's not afraid to go for her dreams no matter how much negative circumstances that may come her way..

I could never dream such big dreams.. All I have are these little dreams.. Not considered dreams even, more like goals~ haha.. Like short term stuff.. Finishing my course with a good result~ Blablabla.. Boring stuff.. That's the least I could try to squeeze out from my brain that's considered to be a "dreaaam".. @.@ Ughh... Why? Because I still remember when pastor was here he would always never fail to ask me every now and then when we meet.. What is your dream? Where do you see yourself in 5 years time? Ughh! I can't answer.. So pastor said start small so I ended up with goals instead.. lols.. It's like a long time ago and oh mannn.. I still haven't progressed from there! I suck!! lols..

Maybe partly because I'm not particularly talented in any way so.. May be harder to dream..? I always say my dream is to have a dream~ Haha.. Sad? Herhhhh.. But I do remember that when I told pastor I don't have a dream.. Or I can't dream.. Or I don't know what to dream.. He just said it's not that I don't have a dream.. It's that I don't dare to dream.. How profound huh~ Maybe it's partly because of that too.. And I guess this Rachel Berry character kinda reminded me of that as well.. Her confidence that she'll definitely make it the top even when she's far from it..

I admire ~~and are jealous!~~ the people that have a dream.. An ambition.. To do something or to be someone.. Someone as in.. Not someone else.. Someone as in someone different and stuff like that.. So if you ever have a dream.. That's just awesome and just go for it!! haha.. If not yet.. Don't stop looking for it! XP And hopefully you're not as stuck as I am.. hehe~ Well why is it important to have a dream? For starters it gets you going~ It can be motivation~ It kinda helps you set your tracks.. To know what to do.. Or where to focus on to achieve it.. Goes in line with the saying "Beginning with the end in mind" should be by Rev Edmund Chan..

And of course I won't give up too.. haha.. Well at least not yet.. xp Maybe when I reach 60 or something and still don't have a dream.. Arghh!! That's crazy!!! keke.. Up until then.. I guess I should spend my day dreaming session to actually dream about real stuff.. lols.. So yea.. Wish me luck? Oh sorry I don't believe in luck~ I believe in God~ OOoOoOOooooo~~~ haha.. xp Wish me the best than!

Ahoy there~

2011-07-31T08:38:00.003+01:00

Went to Albert's Dock on yesterday and I saw a whole lotta people dressed up like pirates~ lols.. Like little kids.. Adults.. Youth.. haha.. Even waitresses and shopkeepers! XD

And then I saw this..

Haha.. No wonder.. Its so cute..! They got the whole Albert's Dock to be involved with the theme.. And their shops sold more pirate toys and restaurants and cafes even had pirate dishes! XD Just for the weekend there.. haha..

Then there was a pirate ship near by.. ohohoho... ARRR!!! xp

Some kind of kids event thingy..? I'm not too sure..

But apparently 2 of the actors who's been on Pirates of the Carribean were there.. haha..

Although.. I don't really know who.. @.@

All I know is.. I saw a cute pirate!!! XP

Kakakakaka...

Emmmm... You should be able to spot him right.. among the.. "crowd" XP

Sooo... ARRR!!! (That's all the pirate talk I know) That's all for today~ keke..

Support~

2011-07-28T00:18:00.004+01:00

Is hard to find these days.. =s I miss the youth.. I miss my girls.. T.T You just don't know what you got till its "gone".. Such a sad statement.. lols.. So.... Better start appreciating those around you.. hehe..

Nevertheless~

If I am soft to myself and slide comfortably into the vice of self-pity and self-sympathy; if I do not by the grace of God practice fortitude, then I know nothing of Calvary love.

Stole this from Andrea's blog.. Hehe.. You can read the full "text" there..

Fortitude!! Roar!!!

I look like a softy.. Feel like a softy.. But I am not a softy!!!!

I live by God's grace..!

Fortitude!!!! xp

Disgusting Fact

2011-07-25T21:40:00.004+01:00

This is in fact...
Not a clean bowl~

Unless you define licking it clean as clean~ ehehehehe..
Yes.. I lick my bowl when no one else is around.. AGAGA..! It was filled with delicious instant mushroom soup~ And licking it makes it extra delicious~ ohohohoho.. *lick lick lick*

Just a mini break from my stressful day~ Ughhhh... x.x
How weird that my blog posts always seem to escalate when I'm supposed to be busy!! >.< Good stress releasing place..? Haihhh... Having some stress withdrawal symptom.. Just feel like being alone.. Which is so weird.. Its kinda nice being alone sometimes.. hehe..

Look at my messy desk!!! roar!!

Not that it ever was tidy.. Well except for the first day.. xp Don't judge me! You have your weaknesses, I have mine.. Don't need to compare.. *blek!

Its gonna be a loooooooooooooooooooooong week.. And its only MONDAY... UGHHH....
>.< Can't wait for this week to be over~ >.<

Tsk tsk tsk tsk.. Relationships..

2011-07-23T01:37:00.004+01:00

To those who are close to me, you guys would know that yes I'm in a relationship now~ ohoho.. With who? Find yourself! xp I shall try to refrain myself from posting lovey-dovey stuff to prevent puking, disgust and geliness from other readers~ lols.. Note the word: TRY.. But I've been successful so far right~~ AHAHA.. But I shall not be so tight on venting my frustrations and misery!! "Misery"~

Being in a relationship is harder then I thought.. Yes it has its fun part but its definitely harder than being single.. Harder than being single-but-having-a-crush-but-you're-too-shy-to-tell-them too! Harder than waiting even! Especially when you start to have certain expectations over him/her already. Which is normal, when you're a couple definitely will have expectations.. No wonder some people feel that even though they've just dated for a few months its considered loooong to them. Days feel like years..? haha.. That's a bit kua cheong.. But I guess I kinda understand that now.. Especially when work starts and busy-ness comes in.. Its hard to find a nice equal balance of busy-ness for couples.. Its always one that's busier than the other. So what does the free-er one do..? Think think think think think all the nonsense~ xp

Worst part is when comparisme comes in.. haha.. Very bad.. Must stay away from it.. I think I'm having some attention deficiency sickness... :( haha.. I've read that 3-5months is the most frequent break up rate.. =s But not to worry I'm not thinking along that line.. Yet.. Just kidding~ xp Despite it being hard for me.. Maybe its just me.. Coz yea I crave attention.. I guess we all do too at some point and what more from a loved one? I still believe that its not easy to have 2 people who love each other to be together.. So its something worth holding on or fighting for.. No matter how miserable you feel at that moment.. And I mean really officially together.. Not the "waiting" type.. That to me is single ok.. There's nothing to be "complicated" about~ hehe..

And there's nobody to blame.. There's nothing to blame.. Some things are just inevitable and we all have responsibilities to fulfill.. You wouldn't like it much if your loved one was being irresponsible just to make you happy right..? Wouldn't want to be in love with an irresponsible person now would we? Well, hopefully not.. o.o hehe.. So to all of the couples out there.. Remember to cherish each other! Even after every fight or tak-syokness you have towards each other.. Especially when you have the chance to see each other everyday or week or month.. ~~Envies!!!~~ XP And to all the singles or couples-to-be out there.. THINK CAREFULLY before you make your decision!!! haha.. Not so much on whether he/she's a good match for you but whether you can take what's coming up for you! xp That's why its important to wait~ Work and study.. 2 totally different things.. Make sure you weigh it out before proceeding to the next step..

Hmm.. Maybe I should have waited longer some more.. Until I start working! Then I'll have better adjustment of time.. haihh yahh.. XP Ahh~ I feel better after blogging.. I should do this more often.. To force my you guys to FEEL with me.. AGAGAGAGA..

Ok ok.. Take care now.. I'll be back.. When I'm free to "frust" again! xp Sounds wrong.. hehehehe..

Oh and don't forget..
There is one more love..
That's available for all, that never fails..

So don't fret, all is not lost.. :)

T.A.L.L !

2011-07-06T18:52:00.004+01:00

Fuh~

Finally a slightly more relaxed day that I can use to post me bloggie! XD
What's T.A.L.L..? Read on to find out~ haha..

Well.. The weather has been pretty gloomy these days.. According to the forecast it'll probably be quite cold this whole week.. Haha.. I find it really weird sometimes.. Last time when I was young, and when I was in Malaysia from time to time I would day dream and wonder what it'll be like if the whole place (including outdoors) was fully air-conditioned.. lols.. Cause its always so hot when I go out.. Now that I think of it.. I'm in a "fully air-conditioned" place right now! haha.. its really funny.. For me.. When I think back.. xp

I remember I heard from a sermon last last week.. That man is not made happy because of what he has but what he is thankful for.. Then he gave an illustration that some people were angry at God because he put thorns on roses but some rejoice because God put roses on thorns.. It's both looking at the same situation from a different perspective.. There's not much use in comparing all the time.. Who is better... Which is nicer (although it is a must when you go shoppping!!!! Its the SUMMER SALESSS!!!! I mean comparing humans and stuff.. XP).. I see no point in putting someone down so that you can feel better...

Read a meaningful prayer from my daily bread today.. hehe.. Thought I'd just like to share it:

Lord, grant me a heart of compassion
So burdened for others' needs

That I will show Your kindness

In attitudes, words, and deeds. - Fitzhugh

The thing I like about the daily bread is that they always end their "day" with a meaningful quote or saying below.. Like today's..

Do all the good you can, in all the ways you can, for all the people you can, while you can.
(Daily Bread)

"While you can.." Life is short.. Yes of course, live it to the fullest.. But what legacy do you want to leave behind..? What type of person would you want to be remembered as..? A friend who is always out to help others or a brat who just cares about themselves.. Life is short.. Treasure.. Appreciate.. Love.. Live.. XD You really never know.. You may never get to do it again~ hehe.. So............ have you found the T.A.L.L..? haha.. If you didn't.. I guess you'll just have to read through again!! lols... XD Cheers to life!

House keys

2011-06-22T23:18:00.004+01:00

Home keys

I'm getting a lil homesick already.. Just a little.. Just a little little.. Lot.. :'(

I have a visitor!

2011-06-16T15:46:00.005+01:00

Kaka.. Took some time off ~~coz I was lazy to do my mountain-piling-assignments~~ to rest~ And to fill up my bloggie.. hehe..

Guess who came to visit me in Liverpool?!

Hohohohoho..
Rachel Chew!!!!!!!!!! XD Yay~

Came on a Saturday and we went for lunch together~ The sun was out on Saturday.. soooo...

The streets are packed mannnnn! Look at all those humans~
Somehow.. Whenever the sun's up the town part will be like that.. haha.. Full of people!

After all the jalan-jalan we went back to my room..

Keke.. Strawberriessssss~ and my fat face.. haha... xp

Oh ya~ And Rachel brought me a pinky pig too!!! Woooohoooo~~~ Finally~~~~~

A substitute for Orangy!!!! XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
Yessshhhhh!!! I now have a soft to hugggggg... weeeeeeeeeeeee~~~

And taught me to cook chicken.. XP With all the cacat/unsuitable cooking utensils that almost made her faint.. haha.. xp Thus I saw the "dissection" of the Chicken for the first time..! Ermm.. Hope I'll remember how to do it next time.. xp Didn't know it was so simple to cook a dish.. Just need garlic, onion, chicken and oyster sauce.. he he.. Just a bit mafan to prepare them.. And the stove here is pretty weird.. Its those electronic stove le.. Takes a long time to heat and long time to cool down too.. hoho.. But so far.. No burnt stuff! haha! Well.. ermm.. If you don't count oven/microwave burns.. xp

Still.. Something's bugging my mind now...

What shall I do with you...? haha.. Can't decide.. Hmmmmmm....

Stronger

2011-06-10T00:01:00.002+01:00

One of the reasons I love this song is because it sings not that we have become stronger but that our God is stronger.. And that is all that matters.

Many times in life we worry.. We fear.. We look and focus on our inabilities.. Our lacking.. Our weakness.. Our failures.. We forgot one important thing.. We have forgotten who our God is..

Remember who your God is.. Remember His strength, His power, His love. We serve a mighty God! A God with unlimited resources and unfailing love.. Remember who you belong to.. Remember who's care you are under.. As long as He is stronger (which He always will be.. ohohoho..), we are stronger. Not by our own might but because His power is made perfect in weakness.. Cause its when we shine even through our weakness is where we can claim that it is not I that can do it.. But my God that did it.

So cheers to every failure.. Every fear.. Every worry.. Every weakness.. For it is a chance to show, to prove to the world that our God is alive! That He's real.. XD That He loves, that He'll help everyone, any one who would just.. believe and ask for it.. in anyway.. That's how much He loves us, all He asks is that we ask.

Some blog time!

2011-06-03T12:00:00.006+01:00

Ahhh... Finally some "time" to post up a blog!

Time seems to be so easily spent when you have to do everything by yourself.. @.@ And when you're away and have a 7 hour differences from most of your friends and family.. Much of the 7-hours-when-both-sides-are-awake/online time has been used to communicate with each other..

And the rest of the time is used for inductions.. Opening a bank account.. Arranging my room.. Washing my clothes.. Buying groceries.. Figuring out their pennies and pounds.. Oh mann.. I tell you there's no 1pound note here.. so If you pay 5 pounds for a 1 pound item.. You get 4 1pound coins! o.o And their coins are not light.. @.@ My purse feels double the weight cause of all those coinsssss.... kreeee...

Hmmm... Life over here is ok... Still ok.. Seeing that class has not started yet.. xp

Guess! What time is it now..?

Looks like late afternoon right.. The time is actually... 8.15pm! PM!
Yea... The sun here goes down really late.. Like 9pm like that but it rises really early.. Like 4am.. O.O Summer.. Its crazy.. The weather is cooling when there's no wind... Freezing when there's wind.. But if the sun is up its still ok.. hehe.. When there's no sun.. Its a sad day.. haha..

TAda! My first egg! haha..

You know what the amazing thing is.. I fried this egg.. With a pot! haha.. Coz we havent bought our pan/wok yet.. My first egg was fried in a pot.. lols..

Oh actually I got my books already.. Just like.. few days ago..

@.@ 10 books altogether.. 8 actually excluding the handbook and marking scheme..
Gonna have library induction next.. By the way.. My Uni is 30-45mins walk away.. haha.. Its actually quite ok to walk in the cooling weather.. Don't get tired so easily... O.O I'll be having leg muscles when I come back.. @.@

Ok.. I'll stop here yea.. Gotta get ready.. Will continue soon enough.. hehe.. Toodles~

Oh yea.. T.T I've forgotten to bring Mr. Orangy.. T.T Gek dou right..? T.T Super saddd... So.. I took a pillow from Emirates to try to compensate for it.. T.T

Doesn't work.. haha..
Oh well~ At least I have a pillow to hug~ hehe..

Tick Tock Tick Tock

2011-05-27T08:24:00.005+01:00

Time passes so quickly, it waits for no man..
I guess no one ever has enough time..

In the blink of an eye.. I'll b off to UK soon.. o.o I'm not too sure how life would be there.. For 3 months.. Away from my family~ But with my college friends.. Haha.. I guess there's some comfort there.. I hope the new environment can help me study and stuff.. I hope I fit in well..

It was a rainy morning.. Hmmm.. Mixed feelings.. So the weather is feeling the same? haha.. Its been a long time since I had rainy mornings.. Was so much better then the hot and stuffy ones... But oh so gloomy this time..

Its kinda hard to express how I feel right now.. lols.. I feel.. Kinda excited.. A bit worried that I'll forget anything.. Or bring too many things.. Or stuff.. he he.. Kinda nervous.. >.< Scary.. Yet exciting.. haha.. @.@

To comfort myself from being away I shall choose a room companion! XP
My candidates areeeeeeeeeeee~~~~~

"I don't know which to bring...!!"

"Choose the one that smiles at you the most.."

"But no one is smiling at me..."

Okayyyyy... Not really no one...
This one seems to be calling my name.. XD
Ok I think I'll take this one.. Mr. Orangy!!
Big smile... Squinty eyes.. Round body.. Small in size... Close in heart.. Perfect! xp

Well.. Guess this will be my final blog in KL.. For now.. ehehehe..
Will update you guys when I reach there k~ hehe... Tooodlessss~

Lulala~

2011-05-22T18:07:00.007+01:00

Lulala~

Look at the little kid at the side.. lols!

Found this in my old photos..

Long time ago during VBS~

Don't even remember how I got this..

But it brings back memories.. haha.. Reminds me of someone.. ishh... xp

Highly favored

2011-05-13T18:47:00.005+01:00

Hmm.. How should I start... Hmmm... Maybe with some basic knowledge.. hehe..

In Psalm 5:12 and Proverbs 16:15 it says the favor of the Lord surrounds us like a shield and rain cloud in spring (which is much heavier compared to other seasons)~ All children of God are entitled to this, all they have to do is to believe and receive.. It comes just the way grace comes, because of what Jesus has done on the cross for us. We just need to be conscious of it.. And by living right we can increase it!

This is something my youth have been trying to work/declare/input in our youth.. There was this prayer meeting where before hand we all shared of how God has been good in their lives.. I did try to search my brain... I couldn't really think of anything at that moment.. Kinda discouraged perhaps.. But it was good to listen to testimonies..

You know when you listen to testimonies at times you'll be like.. wow that's great~ I mean I'm really genuinely happy for the person but I'll still tend to think.. Hmmm.. Yeaa.. That'll probably just happen to you know, to those people.. The more "higher" ranked people.. So to speak.. haha.. Yeaaa.. They are highly favored~ Me? ermmm... Occasionally leee... xp And I've never even realize I've been having this thought until now, when I look back.. haha..

You see God is really interesting.. Its amazing how he never fails to "prove me wrong".. Here's what happened.. The kindy I'm working for had their every Friday Star Fun, a lil kids program where they all gather to play games, sing songs, watch sketches and so on~ Then out of the blue~ After the program ended my principle suddenly called me up and gave me a farewell gift.. Not just a lil keychain or stuff.. It was a medium plushie~ (Wee! more to the collection!) and even gave me a card with a "financial blessings"~ haha! God knows my needs! xp

Wow~ I was really caught by surprise.. And according to my mom this has never happened to any teachers before.. And I was like.. wow~ I wouldn't credit it as my achievement but rather it was a favor from God..! I mean.. Come on.. I was just a part time teacher for 4 months~ Its really short.. I'm not even a class teacher..! And my subject's replacement teacher is even here.. so basically I'm like the replacement teacher's helper.. haha.. I felt like I really didn't do anything special or great there.. It just came like that.. Like grace.. It's just amazing! I mean God is amazing~

Yea although it may not seem like a big thing.. Its just through these simple little things that God reminds me of His goodness, His word, He sticks to His word.. His grace~ He never fails to reassure me.. And its just an awesome feeling to have a "revelation" of stuff! he he its hard to explain.. haha.. I guess you'll just have to experience it yourself ha.. he he..

All I can say is.. Trust God.. Believe in Him.. A lot of things happen.. Probably most, we won't understand why.. Just do our part right, live right, know what is right and never give up hope! I believe my God is good, I believe my God is great.. It is never about rules and regulations.. Christianity is never about a religion of traditions to follow, like if you do this do this you'll be blessed, if you don't you'll be cursed! o.O It is a relationship of love that lives right here, right now between God and the hearts of those who believe.. =)

I love You God! You're awesome! haha.. xp

For what its worth

2011-05-09T11:01:00.004+01:00

Sometimes I wonder.. Is it worth.. To break the trust of many people, people who actually care for them just to be "together" with the person they like..?

It somehow seems so "wai dai" right..? Wow.. They can love the person enough to go to that extent.. To ignore all others and just go for it! They can love the person that much.

I thought for awhile..

I disagreed..

That isn't love from what I see.. Love is so much more then that..

When two people come together they should be a blessing to others.. It is not just 2 people ignoring the world~ Just as Ps Slyvia said last Sunday.. (Oooo~ I remember! xp) "We are not here on this earth just to be blessed but to be an impact!" We are blessed to be a blessing..

To me its like if you've been a blessing as a person.. Being coupled you can now give double the blessing! Coz you've been blessed doubled with the person you love~ hah! Make sense..? haha.. Hope it does.. xp Its kinda like 1 + 1 = 2.. Just a lil more.. Complicated.. Well.. Never mind that~

Its just some random thought.. And my honest opinion.. I know I'm not perfect too.. I have just as much tendency to fall.. to stray.. but I do believe that the choices we make determines who are today and who we will be tomorrow.. Doesn't matter how hard you fall, what matters is you make the choice to stand again..

There is always hope! If you can't find it in people, you know you can find it in God, always! The view is much better, much clearer up there, when you're looking through God's eyes..

Hoohoo~ So after much cheong hei-ness it is time to end..

Toodlesss~ Have a good day~ xp

In heat!

2011-05-07T03:35:00.006+01:00

Ok.. Don't get me wrong.. It is literally heat..!

...

I mean the WEATHER!

tsk tsk tsk tsk.. xp

It hasn't rained for 2 days.. Only 2 days and its getting crazily hot here.. @.@

Woke up at 8.20am today feeling sweaty~ @.@
Most probably the reason I woke up was because it was too hot! haha..
Its so early and the sun is already shining brightly like nobody's business.. kree kree kree..
So I decided to take a picture of that freaking hot sun..

Ok I know.. It doesn't really look very hot..

It actually looks like this!!

Desert sunnnnnnnnnn~~~~~ Ughhhhhh.....

No no no... It actually looks like THIS!

Fireball!!!! x.x

Melting~~~~
MELTINGGGGG~~~~
MMEEELLLTTTTIIIINNNGGGG~~~~

Ok I'm being such a drama queen here.. But seriously...
Things just feels like they'll be melting off anytime soon.. Me included!

Right.. I know all you see is the hot babe.. But do try to focus on the things around her too.. Especially GUYS.. Why can't they have a hot macho shirtless guy instead~ Ishh..
And for the record, that is not me.. lols! In case you confuse her with me. mohohohohoho~ *perasan-ing*

Alright guys stop drooling over the picture... Time to move on~

I think this can give more concentrate on the surroundings instead..

Ohohoho... Meltssssss... MELTSSSSSS....
Oh by the way.. That's not beer though..
Apparently its Perrier bottled mineral water~

This is their melting campaign ad.. Its pretty good~ Sex appeal + creativity.. Won some award too.. he he..

Anyways... I wanna go swimming!

Woohoooo~ Its been some time since my last swim.. huhu..
I should just buy one of those big swimming things and swim in my backyard.. lols!

......

On second thought.. Maybe not.. My neighbors will think I'm crazy.. And I'll have sun burnt skin.. And I'll waste water! And there'll be lotsa mosquitoes! *Trying to comfort/convince self* Yea... Yea... No pool... Nope... Nope~ None at all..

Gahhh.. Mr sun... Could you hide yourself a bit more in the clouds..? Could you lower your violent heat rays..? Have mercy on the peasants living below you~ Oh my gosh I'm talking to the sun.. =.='''

Okkkk... Time to end this post before I go into more nonsense.. xp Its not that bad le.. As long as I'm in the house.. Under my fan.. Avoid my room.. Any room! Keep my backdoor open.. He he.. So for every little thing.. Thank God! XP

Now.. To look into my assignmentsssss... T.T

You

2011-05-01T15:31:00.003+01:00

Emotions emotions..

I will learn to manage you well... he he..

Faith

2011-04-12T07:08:00.008+01:00

WooHoo~ I'm ok again!! haha.. Gotta get used to my mood swings.. xp

Hmmm I've finally thought it through and figured.. Yea.. Its no point being emo.. A waste of my time.. A waste of my emotions.. Bad for health.. lols.. Might as well do something else that's productive then to think of things you cannot change.. Ya? Ya! xp

You know.. At some point of the deadness/emo-ness that you're going through you would somehow reach a point where you would say.. Hey.. Something is wrong with me.. I need to get out of this.. Its killing.. Its so not good for health! xp But you really have no mood and stuff.. Hmmm.. Not sure if this ever happened to you.. But it did happen to me.. haha..

I was struggling to get out of it.. Coz yea.. I knew it wouldn't be too good to dwell like tat for too long.. So I looked around and I saw this book - "Growing Deep in Faith" by Edmund Chan. Wasn't too sure if "faith" could have helped me.. Well I know God's word gives life but reading the bible at that point.. @.@ So I think I'd rather read Edmund Chan's book.. xp

And I found this inspiring poem which I shall share with you guys~ hehe..

By Faith Not Sight

-Ruth A. Morgan-

Sometimes I'm sad, I know not why

My heart is sore distressed;

It seems the burden of this world

have settled on my heart.

And yet I know.. I know that God

Who doeth all things right

Will lead me thus to understand

To walk by FAITH... not SIGHT.

And though I may not see the way

He's planned for me to go,

The way seems dark to me just now

But oh, I'm sure He knows!

Today He guides my feeble step

Tomorrow's in His right.

He has asked me to never fear

But walk by FAITH... not SIGHT.

Some day the mists will roll away,

The sun will shine again.

I'll see the beauty in the flowers,

I'll hear the bird's refrain,

And then I'll know my Father's hand

Has led the way to light

Because I placed my hand in His

And walked by FAITH... not SIGHT.

Well, that was just the preface~ haha.. Inspiring enough.. To know that there is always hope when you put your trust in God.. hohoho.. Holy moly as it may seem, it is true.. :p

So I finished the first chapter! hehe.. Its about Mustard-Seed Faith.. Mentions that most of the time we have faith in faith (faith in our past experiences) instead of faith in God.. He goes on to mention that the focus is never on the size of our faith but the size of our God.

He gave a very good illustration on walking on a small lake of ice. The thing would hold you up is not the strength of your faith but the thickness of the ice. Strong "faith" on thin ice wouldn't hold you up at all but even the littlest faith on thick ice is able to hold you. It is not the faith but the object of your faith that ultimately matters.

Thus he then summarizes it in a simple way: BIG God, small problems. Small god, BIG problems!

It is very inspiring~ Also very basic.. Sometimes I guess being a Christian for a few 1000 (exaggerated) years kinda makes you forget about the basics.. The very things that has held us together, that has made us on fire, that makes us strong, that has been our hope, that has saved our souls.. Perhaps every now and then we do need to stop and check awhile.. Have we been running this race without Him..? Keep your eyes on God, our BIG God!

Things will come in place, just have faith.

huuuuuuu......

2011-04-10T16:34:00.004+01:00

I am emo.. I dun like being emo.. :((((((((

Where are u.........? :( I don't like u being so busy... I dont like u being so far... :(((((

But u have to be busy.. and u have to be far.. :'(((((((

Go to sleep go to sleep............... :(((

Things will get better in the morning.............. :))))))))

It's my holiday 2moro!!! HOHO!!!!

So I will stop being emooooo... :'(( stop stop STOP!!!!!

Stuck

2011-04-02T16:46:00.004+01:00

Lululululululu....

I'm stuckkkkkkkkkk.....

Hello sticky mudddddddddd.........

Hello muds of confusion and uncertaintyyyyyyy..........

Haihhhh....
I just feel like that kitty cat up there.... Kitty kitten....
Struggling... struggling.... Hanging hanging..... *miiiiiiiiiieeeeeeeeeeeeewwwww~~~~~~*

Somebody save me~
Anybody?? Anybody...??? T.T

Relief... for now.. xp

2011-03-31T16:28:00.004+01:00

Ahhh... I'm feeling much much better now.. :)

After what seems to be like a long chat~ Although it just seems like a casual hey-how-are-you kinda chat.. It was a good talk.. Unexpected.. But good.. XD

I guess that was what I really needed at that point... Hooohoo~

Woooots~

Next challenge... Gotta get my brain thinking... Think brain think!!! I must not leave things hanging..

Less blogs to read~

2011-03-28T07:08:00.002+01:00

@.@ Why do people have to lock their blogs... @.@

Sometimes I'm just so Mmm Hou Yi Si to ask from them... Ishh.. Especially if you're not really close or have not talked to each other for a long time already.. @.@ Coz its just like... You know~ ~ ~ Hmmm.. Nevermind... xp

Oh well... A few lesser blogs to read now.. :(

The Sweetest Masterpiece

2011-03-25T09:08:00.005Z

While I was working in kindy today a little girl went up to me and passed me a piece of drawing..

Hmm... Well I thought it was homework..

Then She explained.. The girl on the left.. With the crown and weird boots.. is me! and the girl on top is her~ haha! Awwww... That's so super sweeeeet.. She drew a so called.. "portrait" of me... haha.. With a castle! And she's riding some.. Weird little monster... .. .. . Should have asked her what's that.. Maybe the monster's attacking me.. lol! But it was so super sweet.. I guess I was so touched I didn't even get to ask about the "story" of the drawing..

Well~ This is the first portrait I've ever received from anyone.. lols.. Awwwww...

Anyways... Sports day is coming~ I have been assigned to... YELLOW~ Hope we win~ GO YELLOW! XP

Just a dream

2011-03-24T11:17:00.006Z

I had a dream today.. Not sure whether its considered today or yesterday...

But it was a good one.. :) I hardly ever have good dreams.. It was either bad ones or neutral, weird ones.. haha.. One that doesn't make sense at all.. Like.. Fish out of water.. Yea.. literally "swimming" in the air... Yeaaa... I dreamt about it before.. xp

It was a dream about someone.. And another someone.. And.... A TV antenna.. ... ... Hmmm.. Maybe this doesn't really make sense after all.. haha.. But the other someone is not really the main point or the TV antenna.. ~~I mean what the heck is a TV antenna doing in my dream in the first place?!!~~ It was that someone.. Who couldn't possibly be here with me right now.. he he..

AND... I HAD to wake up at 6.00am!! ROAR!!! Ughh.. I hate work.. xp Dream spoiler!

I just wished it'd lasted just a lil longer.. Wonder if I would ever.. Could ever have that same dream again.. he he..

Then again.. Its only a dream.. And just nothing but a dream~

Cry

2011-03-21T17:38:00.006Z

I wanna scream!!!

I wanna cry!!

I wanna.. .. .. .. just cry...

Tough to have a war with yourself isn't it..? Tough when you look around people and have to smile, because you're suppose to.. Even tougher to hold it in.. Its killing me..

People will usually say "Don't cry.. It's gonna be alright.." Well including me if I were to comfort someone.. But I guess I've never thought that.. Maybe sometimes all we need is to cry.. It is a form of release.. It is a form of comfort.. Somethings cannot be expressed with words.. And maybe sometimes we need to hear.. "It's ok to cry.." or " You can cry if you want.." To know that you're able to or is "allowed" to release your emotions could be the best relief..

If its ok to cry out of ecstasy(super too happy) why is it not ok to cry when you're feeling down/frustrated etc etc..? Perhaps we shouldn't ask people not to cry but to just let them cry.. Be there.. Both to support and assure them its ok to cry.. Its not a crime and it shouldn't be.. And who says men are not supposed to cry? I say real men cry.. Real men are not rocks you know.. They have emotions too.. hehe.. Not as much as the ladies but they still have emotions..

Therefore I say embrace the tears people~ If you're stressed.. or if you're frustrated... or feeling unwell.. or you're scared.. or just plain sad.. Cry all you want! If that's what it takes to feel better.. Go ahead and cry..

A good friend shouldn't always focus on making one happy~ But should also be the one to let you cry, when you want to.. When you need to.. Words or services may or may not come in handy by then but presence and support can speak of mountains..

So... After a good cry~ After feeling better~

Let me show you an awesome parody of Rocketeer -Far East Movement.. Called Shed a Tear.. Haha.. Even Rhymes.. =.='''

I love this.. haha.. Maybe cause I think Rocketeer is an awesome song too! XP

Oh have I told you kevjumba rocks?? No?

KEVJUMBA ROCKS!!!!!!!!!

Just remember after every cry.. Pick yourself up.. It'll be a brand new day.. There's always hope.. There is always light in the darkness.. I found mine in my Lord Jesus Christ.. He has and will always be there for me.. And He will be for you.. That is.. Up to you to ask from Him le... ehehehe... Ask and you will receive! That's what He said.. hoho~

Have a great week humans! xp

Some awesome stuff

2011-03-17T10:59:00.004Z

Got this from a blog.. xp
Very interesting~

An Atheist Professor of Philosophy was speaking to his Class on the problem Science has with GOD, the ALMIGHTY. He asked one of his new Christian students to stand

Professor : You are a Christian, aren’t you, son?
Student : Yes, sir.
Professor : So, you believe in GOD?
Student : Absolutely, sir.
Professor : Is GOD good?
Student : Sure.
Professor : Is GOD ALL - POWERFUL?
Student : Yes.
Professor : My Brother died of cancer even though he prayed to GOD to heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But GOD didn’t. How is this GOD good then? Hmm?

(Student was silent)

Professor : You can’t answer, can you? Let’s start again, young fella. Is GOD Good?
Student : Yes.
Professor : Is Satan good?
Student : No.
Professor : Where does Satan come from?
Student : From…GOD…
Professor : That’s right. Tell me son, is there evil in this World?
Student : Yes.
Professor : Evil is everywhere, isn’t it? And GOD did make everything. Correct?
Student : Yes.
Professor : So who created evil?

(Student did not answer)

Professor : Is there Sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the World, don’t they?
Student : Yes, sir.
Professor : So, who created them?

(Student had no answer)

Professor : Science says you have 5 Senses you use to Identify and Observe The World around you. Tell me, son…have you ever feen GOD?
Student : No, sir.
Professor : Tell us if you have ever heard your GOD?
Student : No, sir.
Professor : Have you ever Felt your GOD, Tasted your GOD, Smelt your GOD? Have you ever had any Sensory Perception of GOD for that matter?
Student : No, sir. I’m afraid I haven’t.
Professor : Yet you still believe in HIM?
Student : Yes.
Professor : According to Empirical, Testable, Demonstrable Protocol, Science says your GOD doesn’t exist. What do you say to that, son?
Student : Nothing. I only have my Faith.
Professor : Yes, Faith. And that is the problem Science has.

Student : Professor, is there such a thing as Heat?
Professor : Yes.
Student : And is there such a thing as Cold?
Professor : Yes.
Student : No, sir. There isn’t…

(The Lecture Theatre became very quiet with this turn of events)

Student : Sir, you can have Lots of Heat, even More Heat, Superheat, Mega Heat, White Heat, a Little Heat or No Heat. But we don’t have anything called Cold. We can hit 458 Degrees below Zero Which is No Heat, but we can’t go any further after that.
There is no such thing as Cold. Cold is only a Word we use to describe the Absence of Heat. We cannot Measure Cold. Heat is Energy. Cold is Not the Opposite of Heat, sir, just the Absence of it.

(There was pin-drop dilence in the Lecture Theatre)

Student : What about Darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as
Darkness?
Professor : Yes. What is Night if there isn’t Darkness?

Student : You’re wrong again, sir. Darkness is the Absence of Something. You can have Low Light, Normal Light, Bright Light, Flashing Light… But if you have No Light constantly, you have nothing and its called Darkness, isn’t it? In reality, Darkness isn’t. If it is, you would be able to make Darkness Darker, wouldn’t you?

Professor : So what is the point you are making, young man?
Student : Sir, my point is, your Philosophical Premise is flawed.
Professor : Flawed? Can you explain how?

Student : Sir, you are working on the Premise of Duality. You argue there is Life and then there is Death, a Good GOD and a Bad GOD. You are viewing the concept of GOD as something finite, something we can measure.

Sir, Science can’t even explain a Thought. It uses Electricity and Magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one.
To view Death as the Opposite of Life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a Substantive Thing. Death is Not the Opposite of Life, just the Absence of it.Now tell me, Professor, do you teach your Students that they evolved from a Monkey?

Professor : If you are referring to the Natural Evolutionary Process, yes, of course, I do.
Student : Have you ever observed Evolution with your own eyes, sir?

(The Professor shook his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument was going)

Student : Since no one has ever observed the Process of Evolution at work and Cannot even prove that this Process is an On-Going Endeavor, Are you not teaching your Opinion, sir?
Are you not a Scientist but a Preacher?

(The Class was in uproar)

Student : Is there anyone in the Class who has ever seen the Professor’s brain?

(The Class broke out into laughter)

Student : Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor’s brain, felt it, touched or smelt it?… No one appears to have done so. So, according to the Established Rules of Empirical, Stable, Demonstrable Protocol, Science says that you have No Brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures, sir?

(The Room was silent. The Professor stared at the student, his face unfathomable)

Professor : I guess you’ll have to take them on Faith, son.
Student : That is it sir…Exactly! The Link between Man & GOD is FAITH. That is all that Keeps Things Alive and Moving.

That student was ALBERT EINSTEIN

COOOoooool, Albert Einstein rocks~ xp

Marchie

2011-03-02T09:10:00.006Z

March is here!

Time really flies I suppose..

March is gonna be a real busy month for me..

First of all, class has started. Our lecturer is rushing to finish up 3 subjects within 2 weeks! And that only includes from Monday to Thursday! @.@ The lectures are still ok for me, can be a lil rush at times.. The "homeworks".. Are crazy.. Brain and attention span challenging.. Ughh... It's like almost everyday that I have to read at least one journal.. And TRY to understand what they're saying with their bombastic words and complicated sentences. Can't they just use a simpler language??!! Like "expressing something" instead of "articulating".. Thank God for online dictionaries.. Cis..

Then I have to juggle between Sunday School, Children Church and Youth too.. And I have a Redang trip coming up.. @.@ And.. I'm gonna start working again in the last week of March. @.@ Goshhh.. Everything seems to be packed in one month! Ughhh.. I have to start my engine sooner then I've thought.. I need a planner!!

I guess time will pass even faster if I'm busy? Ermmmm... I'm kinda not feeling that yet.. @.@ Its only the 3rd day of class and it feels like as if I've already attending 30 days of class. It feels like its been a looooooooong week already.. This is brain damaging.. Lol..

On the other hand.. As much as I would love to just sit back and relax and stuff I do feel kinda ermm.. Excited? Hmmm.. Not really the word to describe but.. It just seems like its something new! Something.. challenging! Something.. Different! Although I'm really not confident on how I'll fare in this but at least there's something new to work at.. And its just... Interesting~ Feels like something I can go for! Like I can start something new~ "start something new"..

However I'm still not used to attending lectures all the time that contains 174 students.. Compared to my previous class which only has 18 students.. It is like.. A major huge difference.. And our lecturer encourages (ermm.. more like forces..) 2 way communication in his lectures.. Which can be pretty scary.. If he knows your name.. Or you're randomly picked.. Or when you can't answer the question.. Or you don't even know what he's talking about.. Its scary to talk to 174 students even when you're talking from your seat.. O.O

Soooo... How come I still have the time to blog? MMmm.. Not too sure.. Maybe I just wanna rest my brain a bit before I crack it again.. Ohohoho..

Oh let me show you my cupcake!

Haha! Cute right? "Teacher Deniece" lols..
One of students had their birthday~ And all the teachers get a special cupcake! Along with her classmates too.. keke.. The thing with working in a kindergarden.. You get to eat a lot of cakes.. XP

Alright.. To the rest of you out there.. Enjoy your week up ahead!

Testing testing..

2011-02-24T23:41:00.000Z

Woohoo just to test if it works.. XD
hmmm.. bold wordings~
~~strike out~~ and...
underline!! hehe..

The Unexpected Motivation

2011-02-09T13:55:00.002Z

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately..

A friend once asked me..
" Do you know why people become emo..? They become emo because they start thinking a lot"

Was an interesting statement.. I was a bit uncertain about it but now I think I can certify that as true! Well, to me at least. Us being humans we never have the confidence to think of ourselves as good. The more we think the more we unconsciously "downgrade"/depress-kan ourselves resulting of course in.. Emo-ness~ Or.. Maybe that's just me. xp But also thank God that in moments like this.. He also sent me an angel to tell me "I care :)" Was just what I needed to hear. *heart warms up*

But still the next morning, its been leaving me dry and tired the whole day. I knew I had to get over it, the influence was too strong. Its effecting my thoughts, my mood which in an overall would of course effect my day.

Then I had some revelation.. When I was bathing.. lol..

It was interestingly a passage of the bible that was not even supposed to be read today.. Hehe.. Well its like that.. I'm currently working part time as a kindergarden teacher in a Christian Kindy. So every morning there'll be devotion.

Today's one If I've not mistaken is Romans 13 or something. As usual in the morning I'm a bit brain dead add on with much thinking I couldn't really concentrate. So while the principle was explain the devotion my eyes started to stray else where in the bible. (shh! XP) It was just random-I-just-can't-concentrate-therefore-I'm-"escaping" kinda stray.. And I came across this..

We have different gifts, according to the grace given us. If a man's gift is prophesying, let him use it in proportion to his faith. If it is serving, let him serve; if it is teaching, let him teach; if it is encouraging, let him encourage; if it is contributing to the needs of others, let him give generously; if it is leadership, let him govern diligently; if it is showing mercy, let him do it cheerfully.
Romans 12:6-8

It was an interesting passage of God's gift. Who says God's gifting only comes in big superior things like having the ability to sing or playing any musical instrument or prophesying. God's gifting are also in the small little things. Those that we tend to overlook, all the time. Things such as just being an encouraging person or just serving others or even.. Just by showing mercy. Not every one has that much mercy to show, or that much encouragement to give or that big of a servant's heart to serve. If you have it, all the more you should work towards it, don't think little of it. You don't need big gifts to be a big person, sometimes its the little things that count.

Anyways.. That's not my revelation though.. That was kinda a "lari tajuk" kinda explaination.. lol. My revelation on that passage was.. I came to realize life isn't always about ME. Me, myself and I is a dangerous poison. Why am I drowning myself with thoughts that are far from good to me and the people around me. If its my problem its not fair that others will have to "suffer" for my inability to perform well.

I've been reminded of God's gift. He says if you have the certain certain gifts then use it accordingly. And by being in the "emo" state I just cant function well, somehow also neglecting certain responsibilities, how then am I supposed to use my gift? Life is not just about me, life shouldn't be just about me. I strongly believe that my gifting is in the little ones XD and I shall learn to be good in it.. And... So should you! XP

Wish me the best! andddd... Have a nice day!

The Day After

2011-01-12T16:33:00.005Z

Woohoo! Freedom! XD

Isn't as fresh as it smells~~ XP

Why? Work lo... Haha.. I have to wake up at 6.30am every weekday mannn... That's crazy.. I've not woke up that early since like... What? Secondary school..? hehe.. Working in a kindy that's why I have to get up so early~

3 year old kids are... Crazy mannn~ Haha.. All the crying.. vomiting.. peeing.. Fuhhh... Gives you a full body exercise mann.. Its only my second day there.. haha.. Anyways.. I'll be working with older children next week.. Hmm.. I wonder which will be better..?

Youth is getting excited.. XD Scary and excited.. A whole new year.. Setting the grounds setting the rules.. Shifting focus.. Hoping for the best! A lot of new potential emerging.. A lot of new challenges.. A lot of new decisions! New hope, new faith, new journey..

I've learned to never underestimate prayer meetings.. Not that I do.. All the time... xp Its just that.. Yea~ Prayer meeting.. Haha.. I don't know how to explain but those "dull, boring, awkward" moments are sometimes just moments that God speaks.. Well to me anyway.. I really didn't expect it that.. xp

I think I've found my memory verse for the year~

For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline. 2 Tim 1:7

Pastor Noah always used to tell me "Be bold".. Well especially during prayers~ It still rings in me every now and then.. XD Two very simple words that speaks of an ocean to me. I know I've improved... Mmm.. A bit~ From..... the past few years.. Lol! Slow improvement ha.. But I'm not giving up! xp Hmm.. It has been on the back of my head but I've never really focused a lot on it.. Hoho..

This year could be a good time to focus on this.. ohoho.. For personal growth~ Yeaaa.. I shall just have 1 new year resolution for now.. x) Errmmm... I think the rest will come... With time.. Hmmm.. I'll see~ hoho..

Gonna be over soon! XD

2011-01-07T08:41:00.003Z

Woohoo~ One down... One more to go~ o.o
Hmm.. I've said goodbye to Facebook for this week *waves goodbye*.. Wonder how long more can I tahan.. XD *itchy itchy hands* Two more day to finish up the week..!

Oh well~

Monday

Monday

Monday

The day after Monday... No wait..

Specifically on Monday 4pm,
I'll be a free lady..

WoooHoooo~~ Gahahahahahahahhaa~~~~

After that.. My plans will be....

1. To do some new year resolutions! I am SO WAY BEHIND TIME for that!
2. Find a new blog layout... I'm getting sooooooooooo bored with this layout... I need more space for my.. "widgets"!! xp
3. Get a job? I'm broke.. No wait.. Actually my mom suggested and found me one.. o.o More on it soon~
4. Play some L4D man..... Lols.. Dunno why.. Although I kinda suck in it.. I just suddenly felt like playing it.. XD Hmm... Butttt... It might be a bit hard to gather some kaki's now.. since the guys are all in their board-game-fever~ Hmmm... Maybe my urge will pass on Monday.. If not.. I'll just FORCE them there!!! Now.. Should I use violence or tears? xp
5. Sharpen my badminton skills.. pufff... Yea yea I know.. my major weakness here would be the refusal to stretch and run.. lols.. I'm working on it~ Trying to- work on it.. hehehehehehe..

Andddd.... Its about time I return to my stuffy notes.. Fuhh... PR paper on Monday! Tough paper to study... Coz.. We have no guidelines...~~Dah lah didnt pay attention in class..~~ :( @.@ Wish me well!

Insomnia

2011-01-05T12:11:00.006Z

Wee.. I finally found out why the colors are not coming out for my words... Coz of.... Google Chrome.. =.='''' When I updated with Firefox... The colors came out just fine~ swts..

See see see see see see~ XD

Ishh.. So next time I shall update my blog using Firefox then... kreeeeee...

Anyways.. Yes I'm having insomnia again... ARghhh... Hates!!
It's been a long time since I've had that.. =.=''' Looks like its back..

Maybe I've been having too much or too long afternoon naps these 2 days..
Roll roll roll.. Susah payah sleep d then Woke up at 4am on Monday and 6am on Tuesday.. =.=''' Then the rolling session starts again.. @.@
GGAaaaahhhh... =.=''''

I don't wanna be online till too late.. So I've forced myself to sleep early!! "Early".. Hmmmm... I guess after sleeping late for the past few days... it'll need some time before my biological clock gets tuned to sleeping at 12am again..

Anyways.. I've tried to refrain myself from naps today! (which is really hard for a bored girl who's being surrounded by piles of notes with a nice comfy cushion behind calling her name~) So I shall thank Lai Tee's sms for waking me up when I was almost drifting to sleep~ XP And my sudden urge to take a bath.. lols.. Which hmm.. was distracted by this! Blog writing.. xp

Anyways~ we shall see if its really the naps that are causing my insomnia again... Or my exams.. Or.. Hmm. Something else..? o.o Too hot ? Too cold? Tooo... Hungry? =.='' Unlikely~ Oh well... I'll see what happens tomorrow..

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Oh yes.. PS: Just in case I forget... JOYE!! If you're ever reading this.. I want admission to your blog! lols.. Use my msn email ya.. xp Sorry la have not been the regular blog checker to notice it earlier.. haha.. but I dun care ah.. I want IN!! lols..

Christmas is near !!

2010-12-23T06:39:00.003Z

Weeee~ My Christmas tree is up! XD

Here are 2 of my favorite ornaments!!

Mr Snowman!! hoho..

and..

Candy cane! XD

I like everything about my Christmas tree!! Except for the "santa claus"... I bet you won't like it too!! XP Don't believe me? Nah! Have a look for yourself~ XP

Ewwww~ Ugly rite? XD

I dunno why my mom still wanna hang it up~ haha..

Gonna spend my Christmas in Penang this year.. Hoho..

It seems like I've not been there with my whole family for ages~

Ever since my grandparents both passed away.. My family rarely visits Penang any more... he he.. Used to be an every year at least once thingy~ hoho... Now we're going back! Kinda excited in a way.. Hmm... But I'll miss the celebration back here.. So its like a mixed feeling kinda thing hoho.. I get that feeling a lot these days... xp

Oh! And my cousin's getting married too.. He he.. Its actually the main reason we're going down to Penang.. XD

I've noticed my blog has been in dust~ lol..

I shall blame... Blogger!!!!! lols.. They refuse to let me change my font color... It looks so... Colorless!!!! T.T SAD!!

Guess what?! Mom bought me a new camera.. Ohohohohohoho~ Hmm.. Maybe that will trigger me back to blogging again? Hmmm... I don't know.. We'll see soon enough.. lol..

Have a nice week everyone!

Its the Christmas week!!! XD

Shhhhh...

2010-11-24T16:02:00.002Z

These things I'll never say..

And

things you'll never know...... he he..

Just for now?

He he.. I hope so..

臭.. Smelly~ xp

2010-11-18T13:47:00.004Z

救命啊。。觉得我的thesis很烂啊。。。

ARghhhh!!! I feel so dead.. I hate this.. T.T ROAR!

Feel so insecure bout my work right now.. T.T Zit confidence! @.@ I'm feeling that.. I work solely under the grace of God now... x.x

But I remember... No matter what.. To praise God for who He is.. Not what He's done.. Through a very inspiring video I found in Facebook.. XD

I've linked it HERE, for YOU! If you have not seen it yet.. XP

I will praise my God because I know who He is, will not rely on blessings to be praising.. What will happen will happen.. I shall not be afraid and embrace it!!! mwahahaha!!!! Because... because.. I should know by heart now.. His love and grace is always always enough to pull me through..

A funny essay

2010-11-09T18:09:00.002Z

LoL... This is an essay I found in facebook..

It says in the description that it was actually a real essay written by a standard 4 student..

Its in Malay la~ XD

Enjoy!

Pagi itu pagi minggu. Cuaca cukup sejuk sehingga mencapai takat suhu beku. Sebab itu saya tidak mandi pagi sebab air kolah jadi air batu dan air paip tidak mahu keluar sebab beku di dalam batang paip. Pagi itu saya bersarapan dengan keluarga di dalam unggun api kerana tidak tahan sejuk. Selepas itu emak saya mengajak saya menemaninya ke pasar. Tetapi saya tidak mahu.

Selepas emak menikam perut saya berkali-kali dengan garfu barulah saya bersetuju untuk mengikutnya. Kami berjalan sejauh 120 kilometer kerana pasar itu letaknya 128 kilometer dari rumah. Lagi 8 kilometer nak sampai pasar saya ternampak sebuah lori kontena meluru dengan laju dari arah belakang.

Dia melanggar emak saya. Emak saya tercampak ke dalam gaung. Dia menjerit "Adoi!". Lepas itu emak saya naik semula dan mengejar lori tersebut. Saya pun turut berlari di belakang emak saya kerana takut emak saya melanggar lori itu pula. Pemandu lori itu nampak kami mengejarnya. Dia pun memecut lebih laju iaitu sama dengan kelajuan cahaya. Kami pula terpaksa mengejar dengan lebih laju iaitu sama dengan dua kali ganda kelajuan cahaya. Emak saya dapat menerajang tayar depan lori itu. Lori itu terbabas dan melanggar pembahagi jalan lalu bertembung dengan sebuah feri. Feri itu terbelah dua.

Penumpang feri itu yang seramai 100 orang semuanya mati. Pemandu feri itu sangat marah. Dia pun bertukar menjadi Ultraman dan memfire pemandu lori. Pemandu lori menekan butang khas di dalam lori dia..lori itu bertukar menjadi robot Transformer. Mereka bergaduh di udara. Emak saya tidak puas hati. Dia pun terus menyewa sebuah helikopter di GentingHighlands dan terus ke tempat kemalangan. Dia melanggar pemandu feri yang telah bertukar menjadi Ultraman itu.

Pemandu feri itu terkejut dan terus bertukar menjadi pemandu feri semula lalu terhempas ke jalanraya. Pemandu feri itu pecah. Pemandu lori sangat takut melihat kejadian itu. Dia meminta maaf dari emak saya. Dia menghulurkan tangan ingin bersalam. Tetapi emak saya masih marah. Dia menyendengkan helikopternya dan mengerat tangan pemandu lori itu dengan kipas helikopter. Pemandu lori itu menjerit "Adoi..!" dan jatuh ke bumi. Emak say menghantar helikopter itu ke Genting Highlands. Bila dia balik ke tempat kejadian, dia terus memukul pemandu lori itu dengan beg tangannya sambil memarahi pemandu lori itu di dalam bahasa Inggeris.

Pemandu lori itu tidak dapat menjawab sebab emak saya cakap orang putih. Lalu pemandu lori itu mati. Tidak lama kemudian kereta polis pun sampai. Dia membuat lapuran ke ibu pejabatnya tentang kemalangan ngeri itu. Semua anggota polis di pejabat polis itu terperanjat lalu mati. Orang ramai mengerumuni tempat kejadian kerana ingin mengetahui apa yang telah terjadi. Polis yang bertugas cuba menyuraikan orang ramai lalu dia menjerit menggunakan pembesar suara. Orang ramai terperanjat dan semuanya mati.

Selepas itu emak saya mengajak saya ke pasar untuk mengelak lebih ramai lagi yang akan mati. Di pasar, emak saya menceritakan kejadian itu kepada penjual daging. Penjual daging dan peniaga-peniaga berhampiran yang mendengar cerita itu semuanya terkejut dan mati. Saya dan emak saya terus berlari balik ke rumah. Kerana terlalu penat sebaik saja sampai di rumah kami pun mati. Itulah kemalangan yang paling ngeri yang pernah saya lihat sebelum saya mati.

And that's all~

Hope it made your day just as it made mine~ XD

Just a little bit more

2010-10-21T17:42:00.003+01:00

I'm..........

A little sad...
A little worried...
A little tired...
A little greedy...
A little selfish...
A little timid...

What I really need now is to be...

A little decisive...
A little bold...
A little firm...
A little stronger...
A little focused...
A little...
......

A little bit more controlled with my emotions...
I will not let it ruin my day.. I will not let it influence my efficiency..
It is so unnecessary..

Don't feel so much!! Think RATIONALLY, LOGICALLY!!
Don't compromise.. Don't feel.. Don't give in..
Go!! I can do it!! ROAR!!

Brief update

2010-10-07T02:53:00.004+01:00

Woohoo~
I'm in my college library now.. gaga.. Just waiting for time to pass so I can go for class at 10.. hmmmmmmmmmmmmm..... So I've decided to have some short updates! XD

My class is joining up with some PR students this semester to plan for an event.. Boy.. I didn't know planning for an event would be so taxing.. Meetings after meetings after meetings.. It's now as if my class ends at like 5 or 6pm.. When my latest class (according to my time table) for this semester is at 12pm... O.O Or it may also be because my group is a little more detailed than others.. That I'm not sure.. he he..

Hopefully this will only last for this week? Since we have to pitch our proposal on Friday (which is tomorrow O.O), I guess that's why we had all the rush of meeting up every day for about 4-6 hours.. @.@ deyyyy... craziness... And when I reached home.. DEAD TIRED.. I think cause my brain juice has mostly been consumed and much energy has been used to try to keep myself awake.. xp When I'm not participating le that is..

OOoo... Look at the time~ My class is gonna start soon.. So that's the update for now le... Toodles..

To live like you were dying

2010-10-04T14:58:00.004+01:00

Life always has the tendency to pull us down every now and then.. Always weirdly things like that seem to almost always come in "packs".. As in all of it.. At the same time..

Perhaps when one is in this stage of their life, they will have the tendency to feel tired... helpless.. without faith and perhaps even without confidence.. Feeling overwhelmed, hopeless and lost. I seemed to be in such a state right now but i refuse to give in. I know where my hope is.. not in myself, but in my everlasting, everliving God.

I don't want to be preaching a sermon~ I just wanna say what I feel. I don't want to stop here. My God is bigger than my problems. Even if I don't see Him, even if I can't feel Him, even if He doesn't seem to be there, I know He is. I choose to look for Him.. xp So... I went ravaging in my old CG materials... XD

And the one that caught my eye was.. DEEP101 booklet. It is supposedly a retreat that I attended by Ps Victor Wong that was intended to help us put a "pause" in the usual routines of life for rest, reflection and renewal.. And what caught my eye was the movie "Tuesdays with Morrie". With its famous quote: Once you learn how to die, you will learn how to live.

Long time ago I remember one of my CG activities would be to ask us to draw our own grave.. lol.. Yes, I know some of you will say "choi!".. But yea when you understand it, its really meaningful.. In your grave/tombstone you're suppose to write down what you think people will remember of you after you die and also what you want people to remember you of after you die. At that point of my life I didn't really truely understand it.. But now I guess I do.

What would you want people to remember you of after you die?

As a person who always complains?

As a trouble maker?

As a selfish person?

As an emotional person?

Or would you want people to remember you as....

Someone who made a difference?

Someone whose life counts for others?

Someone who is a blessing?

Someone who cares, who loves, who encourages?

What do you want people to remember you as?

Once we learn how to die, we will learn how to live..

To live life by priority and not opportunity..

If I want to be a blessing to others and not a burden, I will build and live my life around that. Not grab all opportunity to build myself and neglect others in the process.

There is an old middle eastern saying that goes:

“When you were born, you cried and the world rejoiced. Live your life so that when you die, the world cries and you rejoice.”

So when I read back what I wrote in the booklet. I'm glad that I found back my reason to live, coz I've found out how to die. I wrote: "I want my life to count for others, to count for God. That even when I die I want to at least impart perhaps wisdom or knowledge or just simple principles of life which can add boost to a person's life. "

No man is an island, our lives are build among others. neither is there neutral ground, we are either influencing of being influenced. It is just a matter of time and choice. I've found my stand. Have you found yours? :)

Grace

2010-09-21T17:34:00.002+01:00

Gal 2.20 I have been crucified with Christ that I no longer live but Christ lives in me. This life I live I live by faith in the son of God who loved me and gave himself for me.

suddenly I just felt so affected by this verse.. Its as if I suddenly understood something.. Which I really couldn't explain.. They said that if you're exposed to this verse like a few times a day it must mean something..

Weirdly today which just happened in like the last few hours.. It was this verse that kept repeating in my mind.. In my devotion.. It first appeared in my sms.. Then after I mentally re-memorize it in my head, finished bathing and did my devotion so happened that's the verse used in my devotional material for today.. I was like oooo... coool.. haha..

Then just suddenly all I could think of.. Was grace.
It was grace that saved us all in the first place..
And grace that we need to show people..

Grace to be given something we did not deserve..
Grace to give people something they did not deserve..

So much has happened in the past few days..
Worries.. Heartaches.. Fatigue perhaps..?
Never expected such a big impact.. Were we too late..? Was it already too deep..?
I am afraid.. But I must have faith.. I know we are not walking this alone, everyday strength and joy comes from the Lord.. The life we have is not ours any more but the Lord's and if He can take care even of the birds out there I believe He will take care of ours..

So just hang on.. Since you both have hoped to wait and grow so we will also support you and make it happen.. We're just waiting.. for time.. Painful process but it is the test of time.. Above all if you ever need us, we're just right behind you.

Panda eye circles

2010-09-20T11:09:00.003+01:00

(translation: one of France's most effective black eye circle remover)

I love this~
Its just SO CUTE.. xp

Something to remember

2010-08-24T11:05:00.004+01:00

It was another one of those weird Sunday morning services that I went through last week. Why weird..? Cause.. well.. Instead of a speaker to speak for us on the pulpit.. There was... the video.. haha! A sermon... By.. Bill something.. Bill How I think.. O.O I didn't really get his name... he he..

Anyways~~~
I remembered some interesting points from his sermon just now.. haha..
So I guess I better put it down.. before I forget.. xp

Jeng jeng jeng... Here they are.. hehe..

It is not the will to win that matters but the will to PREPARE to win.

The message during Sunday service shouldn't be the main course but the dessert, your main course should be in your everyday devotion.

Can someone be a good Christian if he doesn't go to church?
NO. Why?
Because he is like a man who marries his wife but says that he wants nothing to do with her family.

And that's about that..
This is all I got in between dozes and struggling to stay awake.. XP Confession time.. haha..
This just goes to show that no matter how boring a sermon is.. Yes I do admit.. There are boring sermons.. xp You can still catch some "main" points if you are willing to give it chance and listen.. Coz if God really wants to speak to you.. You think you can escape mehhh..?? haha.. xp

That's all!

Have a nice day! XD

Here we go again!

2010-08-21T16:51:00.003+01:00

I didn't know being in charge of so many things could be so tiring..
Even if those things will be done and finished in just one day..
I thought I could handle it..
It seemed ok..
It feels ok.. But when you are in the situation of doing it... fuhhhh!!!
I thank God its only ONE day!!! o.o

why doesn't this happen when I'm free ah....??!! haha..
Everything LOVES to JUST pile up during the busy seasons ha...
Great.. fantastic.. CHI KEK right...? @.@
Wish me the best!
Since the "best" is yet to come... stay tune for it.. haha... expect some wailing.. frustration.. crying and stress ya.. lol.. toodles~

._.

2010-08-18T19:09:00.002+01:00

月兒彎彎愛的傻
有了你什麽都不差?
:)

When

2010-08-14T17:04:00.004+01:00

When...

Is it alright to put down a mask...?

So many things I wanna say...

I wanna feel...

But I couldn't...

I shouldn't...

So when.....?

I haven't got used to it...

Will I ever..?

I'll try..

It's easy to smile...

You just need to practice... :)

But it's not easy to find someone to cry to.. :'(

Unless.. I really feel overloaded.. haha..

I'm trying...

I'm really trying...

to have faith... to be strong...

But undeniable..

There are really people who make me smile..

From the inside out.. =D

They don't need to even say a thing.. Contagious smiles..

That's why I'm learning to count my blessings instead of my troubles..

and I sure hope my smiles is as contagious! XD

den it will not be in vain!

So smile people~

You never know.. You could have just made someone's day! XD

Oh recently I've fallen in love with..

I don't want to miss a thing by Aerosmith...

Ahhh~~~ XD

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing~♪
Watch you smile while you are sleeping~ ♫
While you're far away, dreaming~ ♪

and so on and so forth~~~

Don't ask me why.. I just tiba tiba like it.. hoho..

Don't usually listen to rocker style singers.. all the "screams" in the end.. haha.. But this song seems to be.. an exception! XD

Then hor.. I heard another version from a girl called Yuna Ito in facebook.. lol.. She sang it beautifully... woots! Wonder where I could get that song... mwahahahha..

ahhh... gonna force my future bf to sing this to me.. lol!

=.='''

2010-07-26T18:43:00.003+01:00

Haiiizzz...
Mistake mistake...
Shouldn't have tested the converter at this time.. T.T
Now so long still haven't finish converting... aiiizzz.... I wanna sleeeeeeeeep...

I shall blame the college recorder!!! roar!!! VOB!!! Roar!!! I hate you!!!!! I hate you lotsssss!!!!!!

Haiz... So here I am.. trying to "waste" my time while waiting for the converter to finish converting that UGLY VOB into avi... Haizzz... There wasn't any estimation of ending time also.. Waited for.. 1/2 and hour d... wuwu... Hope it won't end too late... T.T I wanna sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep~

with these things i'll never say~

2010-07-22T12:51:00.001+01:00

Turning it around.

2010-07-21T16:50:00.003+01:00

Disappointments in life comes all the time..
Sometimes its just around the corner, around every corner.. @.@
Relationships.. People.. Family.. Friends.. Expectations.. Its unavoidable.. Its bound to come..

But with all the disappointments around..
Sometimes we overlook the little things in life that help us go on..
Every single smile, every single word of encouragement, every little help, the patience they have for me, the time they give to me, the trust they have for me.
Almost all the time I forget to say how thankful I am to people around me..

So thank you! XD Thank all of you..! Whether you read it or not.. For just being you coz there's nothing greater than to just be you. :) Thank you for drawing so much colors in my life. XD

If one could just take the time to look.. There is indeed a lot that you can see..
By pass all the disappointments and all the heartaches there's hope and there's love if only one could open your eyes and take the time to notice, there is beauty in every flaw..

Just the same as how God looks at me.. A flaw of many flaws.. Yet calls me beautiful.

Only Hope - Switchfoot

2010-07-05T14:50:00.002+01:00


 Em     G     Bm     Em  C9      G      C9       B     Em  


VERSE 1: (plucked)
Em          G             Bm Em      C9  G   C9  B
 There’s a song that’s inside of my soul,
Em         G              Bm Em         C9       G     C9    B
 It’s the one that I’ve tried to write over and over again.
Em     G           Bm Em    C9   G   C9  B
 I’m awake in the infinite cold,
Em        G          Bm Em    C9       G     C9   B
 But you sing to me over and over and over again.

CHORUS: (strummed)
      E      B         A
 So I lay my head back down,
       E       B
 And I lift my hands and
 A          C#m7
 Pray to be only yours,
   A          C#m7
 I pray to be only yours,
    C9                B
 I know now you’re my only hope.


 Em     G     Bm     Em  C9      G      C9       B     Em  


VERSE 2: (plucked)
Em        G      Bm  Em       C9   G   C9   B
 Sing to me the songs of the stars,
Em         G      Bm   Em    C9           G         C9   B
 Of your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again.
Em        G             Bm  Em        C9   G   C9   B
 When it feels like my dreams are so far,
Em        G         Bm  Em         C9          G     C9   B
 Sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again.

BRIDGE: (strummed)
D                 Em
 I’ll give you my apathy,
D               Em
 I’m giving you all of me.
D              Em
 I want your symphony,
 F#7                   B
 Singing in all that I am.
        A                   B
 At the top of my lungs,
     A                   B
 I’m giving it back.___

REPEAT CHORUS

After so long....
I still love this song!
I really love the way they combine the Guitar + violin + cello + maybe some other string instruments.. fantastic! XD

Although I only know how to strum... haha.. At least I can still hear the tune when I play~ XD lol..

Shrek!

2010-06-19T18:08:00.004+01:00

Fiona : But, I don't understand. I'm supposed to be beautiful.

Shrek: But you are beautiful.

AWwwwwwww.............

Ahhh.. Shrek.. Brings back memories~ xp

Oh I love the donkey - dragon couple too...
Their kids later on... Super cute~ XD

What's said and what's done

2010-06-17T18:34:00.002+01:00

Its always easy to say..
But not that all easy to do..

We can like plan for a lot of things..
But in the end I suppose it takes much discipline to really actually follow it through.

I admit that I don't really like people who only talk about stuff and can't actually deliver what they said they would do. Until I come to the reflection that.. I'm not too much of a difference at times too. So I guess I should be too harsh on them ha.. hehe..

Take for instance my still-piling-up assignments~
I've told myself that - yes, I have to start planning... You know.. what to do and so on.. I felt I've been too slumber these few weeks!!! I'm not really focusing much on my studies.. But ended up.. Ok.. I slept for like 2 hours.. Still ok la.. Got lotsa time left.. Then do this do that.. ONLINE... O.O poof! Its already 1.45 and I am blogging~ Ishhh..

Hmmmmm... the cause of it? I'm guessing its....
Yet another emotional roller coaster ride~ Ugghhh... When can I be free from it??!! Ughhh... Is it because I'm a girl ah..? I wonder if guys get as much emotional roller coaster rides as I do.. Or they just think about it for 5 mins and continue watching football~ haha.. the sanpatness..

and of couse.. laziness is creeping in... Oh man!!! Shoo!!! Shoo!!!
I really don't wanna keep it till the last minute... Very stressed.. Quality of work also.. I'm guessing not that good? Ughh.. Ok... Setting a goal is important right? Its the drive of all your work right? Ok... Let's set a goal....

Let's see...
I have to at least draft my existing assignments and its deadline.. And actually start with the pending ones!!!! roar!

Its that time again................

2010-06-15T18:48:00.003+01:00

Ahhh...
I still miss this old bloggie...
Can't let it go... XD
What to do what to do?? XP

Anyways... Just to rant a lil...
ARghhh!!! REading log.... Bugger... for every paragraph I have to turn to the dictionary for like 3 or 4 times.. Every few sentences surely there's a humongous big word that I don't understand... Ughhh... What la...

What's with scholars and their big humongous powderful english... haizzz... Simple words like...
similar~ They will write as analogous~ @.@
typical~ They will put as quintessential~ O.M.Goodness...

Took me hours... HOURS!! To roughly understand what the whole mini journal meant.. But of course in between there are some... "breaks" le.. he he.. Hey a person needs to rest~ xp

Suddenly~ The dictionary is my best friend...
www.thefreedictionary.com...
You're the best!! At least for now...

berpindah

2010-05-29T07:36:00.002+01:00

I wanna change my layout...
But is lazy to copy paste all the links again..!

Yet I doesn't want to lose them..
Thus.. I has a new blog now...! XD Scribble Scrabble~

This blog shall remain as her museum of links! akaka..
Tooodles~

Haiz..

2010-05-11T17:15:00.002+01:00

I wish I could control my temper when I'm with you..
I wish I had more patience..
It's not good for us I know..
I didn't mean to... Its just... arghhh... Hard...
Cause you just don't get it.. I've been repeating it for so many times!! Haizzz.. I don't even know whether you're doing this on purpose or its a genuine mistake... x.x haizzzzz...

I Stand In Awe

2010-05-09T18:09:00.002+01:00

I Stand In Awe - Hillsongs

D          G                 GM7
You are beautiful beyond des-crip-tion
 C/G           G
Too marvelous for words
   G                 GM7
Too wonderful for compre-hen-sion
   C                   D - D/C - Bm
Like nothing ever seen or hea---rd
     Em                  G/A - A
Who can grasp Your infinite wisdom
      C
Who can fathom
               D - D/C - Bm
The depths of Your lo-----ve
Bm7/A       G                 GM7
You  are beautiful beyond des-crip-tion
 C      D       G    C/D
Majesty enthroned above.


Chorus:

    G      D/G      D/C     C
And I stand, I stand in awe of you
      G       D/G     D/C     C
Lord, I stand, I stand in awe of You
 Bsus    B        CM7      CM7/C#
Holy God to Whom all praise is due
Am7     D      C/G - G
I stand in awe of You.

Gahhhh!!!!! I hate having short fingers...!! T.T
I can't barrrrrrr.... I can't press strings-in-cacat-positions-that-are-3-frets-wide.... *cries frantically* >.< Stretch fingers stretch~!!!! Standing in my way of making good songs sound even better!!! roar!!!! boo....... hooooo..... Cis~

Anyways~ Chords are from Ultimate Guitar..
I think its a good guitar chord website... They show you how the chord looks like when you mouse over it... ohoho..

Choices

2010-04-14T16:10:00.002+01:00

Choices choices...
Life is so filled with choices...

...

What the heck.. Life is made up of choices..! The older you are, the more choices you need to make.. And the more important they seem to be.. You really can't run away from that.. To not make a choice is already making a choice! If you get what I mean.. hehe..

I guess that's where "Decision determines destiny" came from.. Every decision you make marks where your destiny lies..

However..
Sometimes after making a choice.. You still can't help but wonder.. Is it the right choice...? What would happen if you chose the other..? Would it be... Better? haizz...

Choices choices...

Short lines

2010-04-01T15:28:00.003+01:00

The Production line is oh so fake~

I am broke..

I am getting fat...

Still trying to be bold

And...

Rainy days kills my jeans and connection~
.
.
.
.

On the bright side~

.
.
.
.

I know how its like in the production line now.

broke-ness is exchanged with laughs and smiles..

I've been enjoying tidbits.. xp

I might be bolder than I think I am

And......

Rainy days coooool the weather.. ahh~

There is always a bright side, if you choose to look for it.
Life is never a despair, as long as we learn to count our blessings instead of our troubles and sorrows :)
All things happen for a reason and time will tell that reason.

Special

2010-03-26T16:02:00.005Z

Sometimes you just can't have it all..
You'll just have to choose one over the other..
Its when you need to know where your priorities are..
To be really honest, its not that all easy to put God first.. It does take up some discipline and faith even and perhaps... A lil brains..? xp

Therefore, I really look up to people who can inspire me to grow closer to God.. Its not every day that you meet people like that, even though sometimes you may think that church is full of people like that.. They are people who nudge on me about my walk with God, although I know most of you all think I'm very sanguine-ny, but I think deep inside.. I'm very much a phlegmatic still.. XP Thus its hard to let them go sometimes.. but I believe I will, I have to.. I should be ready... Should be.. haha..

The thing that's so special about God is.. That He's not just a statue or a picture on a wall.. He's very real to me.. He loves me for who I am, not who I have to be or should be. Its because of that love that I strive to be that which pleases Him.

Chris Tomlin's song - Indescribable stated that
"You see the depths of my heart, and You love me the same, You are amazing God"

I always loved that last line, it shows how much of you that God knows.. All your good and BADS.. Which for me.. Would be like tons~ We're so afraid to show others who we really are sometimes, who or rather what we can become plainly because we're afraid of rejection. God clearly knows all of those things yet still loves us the same.. And that's like... Wow~

And I believe its God's love that keeps me happy all the time~ Because it feels great to know that you are loved and cared for all the time right? XD And what more if its a love that's everlasting and one that will never change.. I take assurance in this, for this is His promise to me. To us. To all who believe and its as simple as that.

Mixed

2010-03-12T15:42:00.005Z

Been to Singapore lately?

Nahhh~~

Its a free gift my mom gave me... From Matta fair... haha... dotssss... Just thought that it looked cute... xp

It feels like I'm living 2 lives these day.. Need to adjust and balance up the topsy turvies... haizz.. Feel like sleeping all the time.. And sleeping at the wrong hours too.. @.@ This is crazy, my biological clock is now officially all mixed up. @.@ need to adjust back soon le.. If not.. I can say goodbye to my eyes d.. It'll b covered by my eye bags!! argh!

Goodbye fear

2010-03-07T13:43:00.008Z

"Cause it's been fear that ties me down to everything
But it's been love, Your love, that cuts the strings"

Brave - Nicole Nordeman

Fear I will overcome because a Conqueror lives in me.

Venus and Mars

2010-02-26T09:13:00.006Z

Wooohooo~
I found a summary of that book...!
In the Lowyat forum... which probably already aged around 1000 years old there.. ahaha... xp Summary of... Men are from Mars, women are from Venus~
Yay~ Now I can return the book to Victor... XP Without having to crack my brains to summarise it dulu... xp

Here's the summary~

1. Men offer solutions, while women seek to improve.

2. A man's sense of self is defined primarily through his ability to achieve results. To offer a man unsolicited advice is to presume that he doesn't know or that he cannot do it on his own.

3. A woman's sense of self is defined through their feelings and the quality of their relationships.

4. To feel better, Martians go to their caves to solve problems alone. As for Venusians, they get together and openly talk about their problems.

5. When a man is stuck in his cave, he can be powerless to give his partner the quality attention she deserves.

6. A woman under stress is not immediately concerned with finding solutions to her problems but rather seeks relief by expressing herself and being understood. To forget her own painful feelings a woman may become emotionally involved in the problems of others.

7.When men learn to listen without feeling blamed or responsible, listening becomes much easier. Women should not take it personally when men are completely preoccupied with their problems.

8. Men are motivated and empowered when they feel needed. In contrast, women are motivated and empowered when they feel cherished.

9. Given the opportunity to prove his potential, he expresses his best self. Only when he feels he cannot succeed does he regress to his old selfish ways. (not to be needed is a slow death for men)

10. A woman's tendency to be compulsive relaxes as she remembers that she is worthy of love - she doesn't have to earn it; she can relax, give less, and receive more. She deserves it.

11. To fully express their feelings, women assume poetic license and use various superlatives, metaphors and generalizations. Men commonly take these expressions literally by mistake.

12. The biggest challenge for women is to correctly interpret and support a man when he isn't talking. When a man is silent it is easy for women to assume the worst. Never go into a man's cave or you'll be burned by the dragon!

13. When a man makes brief comments (its's nothing, i'm ok) , he generally wants silent acceptance or space.

14. When a man loves a woman, periodically he needs to pull away before he can get closer.

15. Men also need to understand that a woman may need more time to regain the same level of intimacy - especially if she felt hurt when he pulled away.

16. A woman's self-esteem rises and falls like a wave. When she hits bottom it is time for emotional housecleaning.

17. The last thing a woman needs when she is on her way down is someone telling her why she shouldn't be down. What she needs is someone to be with her as she goes down, to listen to her while she shares her feelings, and to empathize with what she is going through.

18. In relationships, men pull back and then get close, while women rise and fall in their ability to love themselves and others.

And that's about that~ XD
However this is just a general view and guide towards the opposite sex.. They're not 100% correct.. obviously.. Just so that you can get to understand yourself and the opposite sex a bit more.. Men and women really live in a totally different world.. How weird that we're attracted to each other... XD

At least now after reading that book(skipped a few pages) I understand why certain situations happen.. I must admit though I don't really like some of the guy traits I find.. XP And I'm sure the guys won't like some of the girl traits they find too.. These traits can be changed.. or lessened.. but I believe it depends a lot on your self initiation.. Not by trying to change the other person, but the other person trying to change themselves.

Anyways.. If you're interested for more details do purchase the book~ XD
This summary provided is like the summary of a summary...
It's available in Popular in Leisure Mall... And many other places... xp
Happy book hunting~

"Just keep swimming~ Just keep swimming~ "

2010-02-24T05:31:00.005Z

Crappp... I miss Dory....
I wanna watch Nemo again~
Who has it???? Gimme Gimme!!!!!! xp

Had a very rare facebook chat with Ps. Victor this morning... haha..
It was brief yet its speaks a lot to me..
I feel very much encouraged by what Ps. Victor said...

"when God 'remove' people in our lives .. it shows you are ready to rise and do something God wants you to do .. only you ..."

Especially now when March is drawing near... T.T And soon May will be here too.. T.T This year seems to be a kinda tough transition for me.. My spiritual father AND my mentor.. *heart breaks* *sobs*

Some part of me feels comforted by what he said.. Some part of me still can't hep but doubt my abilities and capabilities.. I know I must and should rise but I'm not really confident that I can or whether I'm ready.. Can't help but feel like asking God... "Are you sure I'm ready? What if I'm not?" @.@

Nevertheless. I know life must move on.. And all things have their purpose in happening..and I'll still be able to "meet" them.. Online.. And that I'll also have someone to visit if I ever I go KK... Or UK.. XP But I still think I'm gonna cry over them.. haha.. Like mourning like that.. lolnesss.. XP at least for a while.. Dey... Even thinking bout it sometimes can bring me to tears lo... grrr...

Emotions have a very strong hold on me.. Which I do see as my weakness.. xp A part with which I suppose I want to break through.. At least move to a.. Not so strong hold la.. Instead of such a strong hold.. Susah you know.. emotions running wild like that.. haha.. ishhh... Tiring to control them..

Still I'm thankful for the little encouragement that was given.. Helps me move on :) ~~although I'll still miss them dreadfully~~ and good to know that ps vic still remembers me! yay~ XD

Hotness

2010-02-19T17:54:00.003Z

Apart from this year's hot and stuffy CNY weather...
Another someone just added to the year's hotness.....

Wu Chun...
Is so hot in 14 blades! XP
I can practically melt in the cinema seat.... XD
O.M.Goodness... haha...

>.< He looks so piratey..

Does remind me of Jack Sparrow.. haha..

But he's way hotter than Jack Sparrow!! XD
Well... In this look la.. hehe..

Sad that he had to go... aw~ T.T
Stupid "Chuit Chuit"....
Haha... You'll understand that.. If you watched the movie already..

I think this movie is not bad.. Just some of their props like clothes do seem a bit modernized.. XD Story line wise.. Nothing new.. But still alright.. The fights and yengness ~~Wu Chun!!! ah!!!!!~~ is there.. Donnie Yen also looks pretty cool le.. Has a lil wee bit of humor.. haha.. Overall ok la worth to be watched in the cinema.. XD

Huhu.. And that was my last outing with Joye.. Until May! O.O so long.... Still.. Going shopping with some lost guys, watching hot guys in the cinema and had a combine yam cha session as a last outing.. Hmmm.. Still good! XD until we meet again than~

Photoshop tryout 101

2010-02-04T05:04:00.008Z

with... a special guest...

Joye!!!!!!! XP

This is a very normal picture of my dear Joye~

Now.. to spice up the normal ol boring picture...
I've decided to do some color changing~!!

Test 1...
One of Joye's favorite color is green...

Oooopppsss....
Bad coloring skills... xp Major flaws.. Especially down the end of her hair...
And.. Joye.. you don't suite green la... Green is bad bad!!!
Oh well its just tryout 1~

Next..
Test 2...
My favorite color is pink~

Jeng jeng jeng~~
Joye!!! I made you into a pink princess!!!!
I even did your brows!!! XD
You look beautiful!!!! *clicks "like" 1000 times* You should so go and dye that color... And dye your brows too.. xp

weeee~~~~
Its a hairful color day~
Oh gosh.. this blue rocks too.... XD

Hmmmm... I wonder how long will it take for Joye to notice this post~ haha...

Oh oh!!
I turned Tigger pink too!!!

Woohoo~ XD

I'm falling into you~

2010-02-03T06:39:00.005Z

This is...
Live from my office!! XP
Waiting for my coursemates.. er.. I mean for now its co-workers.. o.o to finish up their part so I can translate it.. hoho...
So... We must not waste time you see.. Therefore I bring you this post!! XP

I think I'm so in love right now~~

With these~~ XD

Pink guitar!!!!!

This one is so FANTABULOUS!!! *heartssssss!!*

To get myself a pink guitar.....

When I have money.. haha..
And when I play my guitar better... xp

Pink guitars are just so GORGEOUS~~~~!
They took my heart away~

Internship update

2010-01-28T17:47:00.009Z

Today my internship was finally confirmed~
Nope.. Its not at Red Fm anymore.. I'll be doing my internship in a mandarin base film company called Shining Productions.

I officially do not like the way Redfm manages their dealings with interns... Not that I'm defaming them or anything.. Or speaking anything false.. I'm just speaking the truth~ And exercising my right to have the freedom of expression~ An expression on how I feel about this situation.. Must let me release and vent my anger over this.. ishh..

Even if you reject interns.. At least do have the decency to call/sms and inform us that we're not accepted..?? We have to wait in the dark without a call whatsoever.. And what's worse still. they say one thing and do another.. And you would think that well known companies have more sense of professionalism.. Pahhhh...

Ok.. this is gonna be like a rant.. Although I already got my internship I still really cannot tahan the way they manage this internship..really.. Perhaps interns are not that important to them.. But hey~ Everyone needs to start small right..? Before you can be a somebody you'll always start with a nobody first right? At least they could keep to their word...?? That'll do their company a lot of good... Anyway.. Here's what happened..

On Monday(18/1).. The person who interviewed us said someone will give us a call before Friday(22/1).. They said their efficient some more.. And stated that they will definitely give us a call.. I mean there's nothing wrong with the interviewer.. He was a really nice guy, friendly and all.. I believe he would have been a good boss too.. But.. He just didn't stick to his word.. I wouldn't say it was really his fault.. To process this and all is not done by him alone.. I hope... Anyways...

We waited with anticipation.. No calls pulak.. It turns out WE had to call them instead.. =.=''' And guess what they said..? The internship was not processed yet... =.=''' If you are able to tell us their decision back than, they should at least have the tendency to work to make sure they can deliver what they said.. And it was like.. the 22nd of January already.. 1 more week before February(The month where we're supposed to start our internship) starts.. ..

Right.. So after the phone receiver said it was not processed yet.. He stated that it will only be processed next week(which is this week).. And he will PERSONALLY call us... Yea right~~

Ok.. so we had our hopes high.. And it was the end of the week again and yes you've guessed it... AGAIN no calls..... OMGosh... Is giving us a phone call really that HARD..??? =.=''' Even if you wanna reject us also... Can't they make their decisions earlier..??? it takes TWO weeks to decide whether or not to hire an INTERN??? OMGooodnesss.... Yea right... Real efficient to me... =.=''' The Shining Production that I will be going to for my internship now.. Took only like few hours to decide.. They interviewed us and terus ask us to come on what day what day d..

I mean.. We really need to know our results earlier so if we get rejected we could look for another company straight away.. After dragging our time than only tell us we're rejected or worst even.. Just not call back.. (how responsible~ =.=''') They've left us with no time to look for another company... ughhh... The nerve of it..

Not only Red Fm.. Seriously.. I heard from my other course mates.. Some other companies also don't keep to their word... Say that they'll call when when when.. But end up not calling... Then we had to call them back again... I mean just because you're a big company doesn't mean you have to be so stuck up~

Seriously.. Those companies should really learn to keep their word... I know to them interns are like a small itsy bitsy unimportant.. insignificant.. so called "addition" that they can have.. But hey.. Who knows..?? Interns now could be like what.. Future manager or CEO of some broadcast or media company.. Not that I'm saying that we'll definitely be someone great in the future.. But i'm not ruling out that possibility either.. Everyone has the potential to shine if given a chance..

Therefore they shouldn't just treat us differently as how they would treat those so called media big shots or important people.. I bet their important people don't have to wait TWO weeks for the results to come out.. ~~Most probably be done in a day~ Or half a day?~~ They should have more respect to people.. Because you never know how things can turn around..

Just a message to companies out there... I sincerely believe that keeping to your word is something that is very important.. Doesn't matter if you promised it to the CEO of the company or to the janitor of the company.. It is highly important for your reputation.. Which of course.. You would know better, is important for the success of your company.. 1 of the factors for effective corporate communication(OMGosh.. can't believe I still remember the points to this horrendous subject!) : PROMISES MUST BE KEPT..!

Haizzz... I hope I don't grow up to be like them.. I mean.. I'm kinda grown up already... but ermmm.. When I grow up-er..?? Ok ok... I mean when I start working.. In the future.. Oh wait.. It should start now actually.. ehehe.. Don't need to wait for the future... And dear friends.. If you ever see me like that.. Saying one thing and doing another... Please slap me awake!! I don't wanna be a NATO - No Action Talk Only.. I hate NATO's.. And I certainly don't want to be one..

Anyways.. No more talking about Red Fm anymore.. The way they manage this small little internship has already totally changed my perception towards them.. tsk tsk tsk.. I shall tell you more about Shining production than.. This company manages satellite tv channels, tv production, event and concerts and artist management..

Their scope of job is kinda interesting to me.. They do a lot of practical on the job stuff.. Which is not really good for us.. haha.. In a sense that.. Before that all we studied and learn in class are about theories, theories and more theories.. I've just come to noticed that we've not acquired any particular so called practical skills from studying this... swttttt... The person in charge was also like.. ha.. You all do more on theoretical stuff ah.. Like that here in the production part will be a little difficult for you..

But actually.. I don't mind.. Seriously.. haha.. I've been dying to do practical stuff for like... Forever!!!!! Keep on studying and stuffing info into my brain is not really my choice of learning.. I prefer hands on.. There are 3 stages to this.. Pre-production, production and post-production..

Oh another thing that can be a disadvantage for me is that.. Shining Productions is focused on the Chinese speaking community.. Meaning that even their forms are in Chinese!!! haha.. Oh man.. My Chinese ah... Very limited.. haha.. Thank God for friends who can read Chinese.. xp I see the importance of Chinese education through this.. haha.. For those of you who are still studying Chinese.. Please continue on!! No matter how much you dislike it.. It'll definitely be a good "asset"/investment/advantage for you in the future.. It looks good on your resume too.. When in all 3 languages you can tick all : speak, read and write..

For now... Our so called boss doesn't require any particular skill from us.. Since she said we are still interns and are here to learn.. She does put emphasis on 3 important characteristics.. Which are.. Punctuality(I'm so scared over this.. haha.. I better set myself to go like.. 10-15mins earlier!!), responsibility and honesty..

YES!!!!! Finally~~~ No more studying.... For 3 months!!!!!!! Hopefully working is not as stressful as studying.. But at least its a change of environment... Some fresh air to breath~~~ I am happy and satisfied.. For now... ohohoho...

hearts the kitty

2010-01-27T11:24:00.003Z

Just missed all my pasar malam transporters.. haha... oh well~ blog saja le~
I was surfing through some random blogs the other day...
Then I happened to bump into Full.Time.Nerd
And I found this from his blog~~~ XD

Awwww~~~ Isn't it cute..???
Well the situation doesn't really speak to me... haha.. Except for the last "picture".. I love cats!!!! XD But I do like his Creative drawing~~ XD
Especially the 3rd last picture... Cute dey~~~!!!!
And the heart look so nice~ and half-ly transparent.. xp

Anyways... Internship fella still havent called yet... T.T
Call me call me!!!! T.T

Finally~

2010-01-25T09:49:00.002Z

Weeee~~~
Finally I've finished my examsssssssssssssss~~~~~~~~~~
XD XD XD XD XD

Next thing to worry about... My INTERNSHIP!!! 0rz (<- its actually a "picture" of a person bowing down... xp Do you see it?? Do you see it??)
Haiiizz... RedFm still has no news bout my internship there... Supposed to inform us last Friday ge.. But they said they haven't finish processing it yet and will inform us this week... x.x

I do hope I get it... T.T
I really don't wanna go back to study... While the rest of the world (AMS coursemates.. XP) is doing their internship outside... huhuhuhuhu~~~~

Kim Hyun Jung

2010-01-19T17:34:00.002Z

My latest craze~
XD

Kim Hyun Jung!! ahhh!!! <3
He can act.. and sing~~~ XD and play guitar~~
And he's wearing pink~! <333333333

The chicken and the cat

2010-01-18T09:46:00.002Z

Bwaaahhhhh~~~
Let me rant for a little while before I proceed on with my chicken and cat..
BWAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH
I hate exams!!!!!!!

Apart from tiring your brain...
They mess up your house too... xp

Statistic notes everywhere~~~~
O.O I'll be taking my statistic exam tomorrow...
Wish me the best!! xp
And thanx Melia for praying for me yesterday.. It does make a difference for me.. :)

Back to the chicken and the cat!!!
Saw my chicken coming into the house to curi makan!!!
From the cat... haha.. kesian...

Beraninya my chicken... swt... Still wanna run into the house after kena chase.. ish...
No wonder my cat's starting to get thinner and thinner..

And that same greedy lil chicken....
Is gonna be a mother soon!!!!
Awwww~~~~

Ta da~
She started to "bou tan" d... haha..
She's one smart chicken weh... Guess where she chose to bou her tan... directly under the sink of my kitchen... swtnessss... There she'll be protected from the rain, sun and wind~

No.. I do not don't lock my back door..
Its just that she managed to squeezed through the square grill doors..
And started laying her eggs there... and when the time came... She'll start "incubating" her eggs.. this should be her... 3rd or 4th day already.... After 21 days.. There'll be lil chicks soon~
hooohooo~~ :)

Digi Internet Pimp My Day Challenge

2010-01-13T11:09:00.002Z

As some of you would have already known...
I went to join a Digi contest on the 9th of January 2010!!
A much needed activity to help me survive through my draggy weeks of finals emerging... T.T
For those of you who have been wondering what kind of challenge this is... This is where I'll spill out the beans for you!! XD
But first of all... Be prepared for a super loooooooooong post~ xp

Its a team work challenge.. And every good team needs a good name, right? Right.. And coming out with our own team name is a challenge in itself..! haha.. Since we were also cracking our brains to come out with a war cry to get ourselves in the competition..

All sorts of names came out.. Ducky la.. Spongebob la... We tried joining up our initials: A, D, J, and V......

...

D.J VA???
@.@

Oh man.. That is so not working~

We're actually already friends wayyyyyyyyyyy before this contest was created.. Therefore friends being friends we call each other nicknames just ~~to annoy them~~ for fun~ And... so happens our dear member Victor's nick name is... LICKY~~~~~~~

Thus after much ~~debates~~ discussions we have finally decided to name our group Licky~~~
Due to the happiness, joyfulness and lickilicious(I don't know what this means but... er... it means good!) that we find in that name... ;)

Ohh yea... Speaking of group members... Let me introduce them to you~ XD I shall let the picture do the talking~

Hmmm... Noticed anything similar that we all have in common?
(Apart from our tshirts being the same color as we are required to digi-fy a.k.a wear yellow there.. Yes we are wearing yellow.. its called dark yellow :) hehe..)

We're all wearing the same tee!! Well.. Its the same but different.. hehe.. We decided to show some unity and bought 4 same shirts.... and added some personal touches to it... hehe..

We snipped, stretched and TORE our tees!!!!! xp

Alright alright... We didn't really tear our tees le... More to snipping... hehe..

*snip snip snip*

Its kinda scary weh... The first time you cut up your tshirt for the sake of "fashion"...

I mean.. If its an old shirt then we don't mind le...
But this is new!! And our one and only shirt for the digi day challenge... o.o

But....
(hooohooo~ one of our yellow accessory in the attempt to win the RM300 from Levi's.. Which... we failed to do so.. huhu...)

We soon got over the scary part soon enough and kinda enjoyed cutting it... hehe

Tada~~
Our self designed patterns for our t-shirts!!
Actually got the idea from youtube.. hehe... A very resourceful place for ideas... hoho..

After some speedy take-out lunch in the car... We finally arrived at our destination - Mardi Gras~ Which was located in...

A very huge place~
One must need a directory of the place.. Especially when having "treasure hunts" like this..

Then we went to register ourselves and we were... Team 16- Licky!

First an artistic look for the picture...

Next... Our model modeling for the picture..
Ahhh.... The one whom our group name derives from.. Victor~Licky ^^

Inside our envelope was a Digi Internet Broadband dongle~ hehe..
Tried it to our laptop... Easy download and fast to use...

While waiting for the challenge to began.. We went inside Mardi Gras to chill~

They had free flow of Sprite and Coke~
Planning to give us a sugar rush and some hyper-ness for the challenge ha... How thoughtful~ xp

During our "free time".. I gave Jon a free tatoo!!!

Our group logo!!!
Right in the middle of his back...
Can't see it? Let me zoom it for you.. hehe...

Tada~~

Our smiley licky logo peeping out from his sexy shirt to say hi~~~

Here are ~~OUR COMPETITORS!!!!~~ other team members who joined in the challenge...

Mardi Gras was packed with.....

Yellow people~
haha...

Hohoho...
Curi-curi took a photo of one of the contestants...

I salute him for his courage in dressing up and walking around 1U like that!! Its a no wonder they won that RM300 for Levi's... Envy-nya... Could have gotten a really nice CNY Levi's with that!!!
Maybe Team Licky should have taken our photo with him and his gang.. Just for fun~ hehe.. his other team members wore rafia string skirts~ Well... Over their pants le.. hehe...

And here we have Victor...

Dreaming of what he can do with his new laptop and accessories if we win this Digi Pimped My Day Challenge~ Awwww.. Doesn't he look cute??? haha.. xp

And we have Jon....
Errrr.... Puking out of excitement..??
Stay away from sugary drinks Jon... You got that tummy to lose!! xp

And as girls~~
We do what most girls like to do when we have nothing to do... xp

Camwhore!!! hehe... *snaps photo*

Soon after that....

The Challenge finally began!!! A very cheerful and joyful MC gave us our briefing..

He indeed made the atmosphere more lively~

Here's our challenge time...

2.5 hours... Not enough not enough!!!! xp

And here are the 6 challenge stations that we had to go to...

We don't have to follow the arrangement of the stations here... We're allowed to choose which to go first.. In case there's a long queue of other ~~COMPETITORS!!!~~ contestants waiting in line...

And off we go~~~!!!!

Hmmm...
Decisions decisions...
Which station do we go first....??

Its good to have the directory in your hands...
Especially if you're new to the place.. Like we are~ All 1U Noobies~

Anyways...
We have decided to go for the Likely Average Speed challenge first!
Its located in Celebrity Fitness~

When we arrived there... We already saw a bunch of yellows running on the treadmills..
Ooppss.. We were late~

Hmmmm... So we waited...

And waited....

Finally...
to run!!!!
It was so easy the guys were running it backwards!!!!

*snaps back to reality*

Nahhhh....
They were actually just posing... Before the next team went for their run... @.@
We were actually... Still.... waitingggggggggg............ ughhhhhhhhhhh.. haha..

Now this is for real... Finally~~~~~ To run!!!
So much for the run being easy har... Look at Jon's expression... Ann seems to be taking it easy~ hoho... Of course.. There are different speeds for us to adjust to..

We just need to run for 800m... Wait... We just need...?
I think its more to... OHMYGOODNESS our 1st challenge and we need to RUN 800M already??!!!!
Ok ok... Calm down calm down... Fuhh...
Right after running our average speed will be taken as our score~

Thus I ran with super lightning speed!!!!

See... Even the picture's blur... Couldn't catch up with my super lightning speed...

Ann: Don't you dare look down on me... I can out run you any time!!!

Whoaaa... Ok don't mess with Ann...

Right...
Although I had super lightning speed!!! I came out last (sorry guys~)... =x I guess I was just no match for my team's super ultra gabazarrr(ooo... i created a word!!) lightning speed!
ehehehe..

Ok... Enough of that... On to the 2nd challenge~~

Quicksilver's Super Model You!

Ahhh.... As what every good gentleman will do...

Help the lady carry her super-heavy-yellow-DIGI-FIED-bag-loaded-with-2-bottles-of-water,camera,cables-and-everyone's-valuable right after a tiring 800m run...

For our next challenge~ We're required to choose some Quicksilver clothes from the box and basket provided for us...

To dress ourselves up..
And we will be given 30 secs to strike a pose with it..

The guys seem to take just a few seconds to find what they needed but for the girls.. Ermmm... *tries to change topic*

Anyways~!
Here's our photo!!!

Not much of a pose har... haha.. We were in too much of a rush at that moment to strike any nice pose~ We didn't even take notice of the price tag still sticking out of our hats!!! LOL..

We just ran a 800m "race" on the treadmill, we're super sweaty and all than we went to try out those clothes.. hmmm... ok.. I kesian the next few contestants who will be choosing the same clothes as us... xp They'll be forced to come in contact with our "natural perfume" that we left behind while trying on those clothes..

But even in that brief moment.. I think I fell in love with that dress!! haaaa~~~ Gotta save up some $$$$ to get it d... hehehe..

Next we decided to go visit the Rainforest for our 3rd challenge...
There were 2 challenges located in Rainforest..
The 1st one was ...Now, the net lives on your phone...

Here, we are required to look at a Nokia 5800 ad... Through a Nokia 5800.. (cool~) Than use the T9 dictionary from our handphones to decipher the message..

We were all too cooked up with the.. " You can only watch this ad once ok~" That we didn't take any photos but took a video of that ad instead... swtnesss..

Nevertheless~~ I can still print screen it from our video to show you... There you go~~

Woohoo~ Nokia 5800.. Touch screen... xp

Here's the real video that we watched...

Hehe.. It was already streamed in the Nokia 5800...

After that we continued on to our next station.. Which is also in Rainforest.. Which is.. Bullseye! - This would be our 4th challenge..

Where we saw the cool instructor in salt and pepper hair...

Teaching Ann how to put it in and blow~

Instructor: First your cup your hands around the opening..
Ann: Ooooo...
Victor: Aaaaa...

Now on to the practical~
Victor using his great analyzing skills to try to guide Ann on where to shoot..

The instructor inspired us to give out a ganas look for our group shot!!!

Failed...
Haha... We were too happy/excited I guess...
Either that or we're just amateur posers~ xp

Next, we're off to our 5th challenge... by Digi called the 1 o'clock, 2 o'clock, 3 o'clock rock..! What a long name~ xp

This is simple... We just need to crowd at the laptop in the Digi store..

And stare at it...

nah kidding~

This challenge actually tests our speed in clicking and surfing.. the Digi music website?

We're require to get a song each from Lady Gaga and Akon then add them to a playlist and play them with an inbuilt music player in the shortest time..

And this is their Digi Music Website...

5 challenges down~
3 more to go~~~

We looked a the directory...

And we walked and walked and walked...

Into some little lorong....

*eerie music plays*
Errr...
Victor...
Are you sure this is the right way...???????

*Victor walks through the door*
*even eerie-er music plays!*

Jon comes walking by....

OOoo...
CEH~

Victor, Jon and Ann : Told ya so~ Thinking too much la you~ OK ok.. Fine...

While in the lift...
Jon: Quickly quickly close before other ~~COMPETITORS!!!~~ contestants can make it in..

Jon: Now we've got the lift all to ourselves!!!!

Ok~~~ A lil too tense perhaps...?

Since there's no one around..
Time to chill out with some...
Group Camwhoring~~~

Ah lah Victor~ You lost an eye... xp

Here we are at challenge 6~~

Its a Homerun! challenge by Its A Hit-Baseball Cage

Cooooooool~~
We're gonna play baseball!!

I didn't even know there's a baseball cage in 1u up until now... o.o

Rules of the game:
We will each be given 15 balls to bat..
And of course we must try to bat as many balls as we can~

Seeing that all of us are Noobs... We're never even so much as touched a baseball bat before how can we bat it???

Not to fear~
For we found a really nice stranger called Azahari who was willing to give us some tips or so with baseball batting~

????????
ERrrr.. Are we suppose to hold it like this..??? ??? ??? ???

Azahari explaining the bat to us..

Azahari *speaks in pefect english*: If you're right handed, your left hand holds the bottom and your right hand will be above your left hand... etc etc..

He's really very friendly~ See.. Smiling all the time...
Eventhough Jon is still looking very blur with his very blur face...

Weeee~
A group photo with our coach-of-a-few-minutes~
Thanx Azahari for helping~
Now this is the 1Malaysia that we are talking about man~

Then comes our individual tryouts~!

This is called..
"yao zhi sai mou sat zai" - in cantonese..
Which basically means... Style is there... Skill is not.. xp shhhh...

Then its Ann's turn to go~

She got quite a few balls...
Definately more than me... hehehehe...

The next 2 are our top ball scorers!!! woohoo!!

I think Jon hit the most balls..
After a few shots.. He kinda got the hang of it...
After the whole thing.. He even says he's got the thing for baseball after that tryout.. I guess he'll be coming back for more anytime soon... xp

Victor was pretty good at it too..

Just that when his balls came it was sometimes too low or too high.. When I said his balls I meant when the machine shot out the baseball ok... don't think too far!!!
But after a few tryouts he too got the hang of it~

*checks watch* Oh nooo... It's passed 5.30pm.... One of the challenges..
The one from Mardi Gras -Do you think you can dance? opens only from 4:15pm to 5.30pm...
Awwww... We missed that challenge...

Sadddddd....
It was pole dancing though.. hehe..

Nothing much we could do about it already... Towards our last challenge then!

*rushes to lift due to lack of time*

I guess we'll be losing a few kg's from this..??

Our last challenge for the day~
Lights, camera, action! by Swatch...

Here we are planning out our swatch and Digi Ad..

And here's a snapshot of it from our video~
Which we failed to upload to facebook due to some complications during the upload.. T.T

Oh by the way.. Victor is holding a Swatch watch and the words "Time".. hehe.. In case you couldn't see it properly...
Swatch gives you the accuracy of time and style~
Digi gives you speed and value for money~

And the time is roughly around 6.30pm?
Its about time to head back to Mardi Gras~

Here we have our final challenge of them all..
To blog a team post of our day challenge and to submit them on time!
We were initially given only 1 hour and a half to finish up our blog...

Here we can see all the yellowies busy with their blogging too...

In the midst of all the blogging... Food is also served~~~

Jeng jeng jeng~~~

But of course you have to get through this...

Long line before you can enjoy the food~

Picture taking time...
Sorry Jon~ A Girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do~
Well.. In this case.. Its 2 girls..! hehe..

Ok ok.. Fine fine... Help you up in the blogging...
Seeeee.... I'm abandoning all the food~ Glorious food~ for that....

Oh and we had Jojo Struys for our MC for the night!!

Be envious people!!!
What??
I've never seen Jojo Struys in real life before mer~~

Anyways... She gave out the prizes for the previous Digi events.. Which are HP minis'.. ah!!!! Envy-nya~~~ I want it!!!!! ~~Go rob them later...~~ And also prizes for those who score the highest for each 8 challenges... We didn't get to win any though... huhu...

Here we have the DJ..

Giving us music for the night to keep the atmosphere up and happening~

There were also 2 performances for the night...

Pole dancing...

Hmmm... Was too busy looking at their stunts to catch any good shots... XP

Mohohohoho... viewer discretion for the younger viewers...? XD

And a performance from the KL Stompers..
Using recycled items to make music~

And that was a wrap for the night~ All of us also get to go home with this~
hehe... Which can last you 5 days after activation..

We would really want to thank Digi, Nuffnang and so many other sponsors and contributors for organizing such an event that gave us a blast~

Through this event it was the first time that we..

used the Digi dongle~

snipped our own shirts and deemed it as style~

batted baseball~ Had a stranger guide us in baseball batting~

Shot targets through blow pipes~

Blogged in a Mardi Gras~

Saw Jojo Struys in person! Watched pole dancing, live~

And many many more...

Although we didnt win anything... yet... XD
It was truely an experience of a lifetime.. And we had fun! :)
We'll be coming back for more... Ngek ngek... So be prepared~!!! xp

Yay~ Now that I'm finally done with my blog....
Phew~ long one....
Its time to go back to my revision........................ T.T
Wish me all the best~~~~ T.T

Cu-cum-ber~

2010-01-06T17:19:00.004Z

Finally~~~
Something useful for cucumbers~~

Cucumber

Cucumber is a surprising beauty secret for the skin, with its hydrating, nourishing and astringent properties. Cucumbers have the same pH as the skin so they help restore the skin’s protective and natural acid mantle. Grate or blend a cucumber. Apply this over the face, eyes and neck for 15 to 20 minutes. It is a great tonic for the facial skin and regular use prevents pimples, blackheads, wrinkles, and dryness of the face. By applying cucumber slices onto your skin, you can have soothed, smoothed and cooled skin.

source: http://www.koreatimes.co.kr/www/news/art/2007/06/147_4470.html

ahh..
Cucumbers are not to be consumed!
But rather... Applied~ XD

Gonna try that man... With my fingers crossed!! Acne go away~!!!

New year is here~

2010-01-04T17:02:00.008Z

My first 2010 blog post!!! XP

And I am starting the year with... STRESSSSSS... Such an interesting way to start the year ha.. Thanks to my fantabulous college which planned our finals to be in January... huhu..

Honestly speaking.. 2009 was a pretty tough year for me.. In fact I think its a pretty tiring year for most of us..? Lots of unexpected surprises.. Both.. good and bad... xp If I were to trace back from 1st of January 2009... It would take up a lot of brain juice as I'm almost running out of it due to studying for a make good test tomorrow.. Or rather today!!! So yea.. I'll just keep it to myself.. hoho..

Another year older.. New responsibilities, new challenges, new opportunities all awaits~
From last Sunday's sermon.. I kinda caught the words.. Be bold, take courage, where your greatest crisis is where your greatest calling will be. Wisdom is important.. It marks the path of our journey..

Your decision determines your destiny.. And you need wisdom to make wise decisions.. And what wisdom is wiser than God's? Thus it is glad to know that being children of God, we can freely ask wisdom from Him and trust that in everything He works for the good of those who love Him..

This year will mark a lot of changes for me.. I need to grow up faster.. I need to stand firmer.. I need to push harder.. To trust more.. To give more.. To be initiative.. To be creative.. To rely on God more, to learn to let go~ Things need to change and I cannot be doing the same things as I've done last year.. To risk more~ To dare.. to fail!!! XP

Whatever the future holds for me.. I'll make it a point not to be afraid.. I will not be afraid.. I choose not to.. Because I believe in a God.. That I can see.. He has a purpose and a plan for everything.. Just look around.. And you will understand~ hoho.. Interesting? haha.. I got it from a song.. By... I think Pastor Rocky.. He wrote that song and sang it with us during one of my youth camps.. wayyyyy long time ago~ It's a really meaningful song.. And he's a really talented and anointed pianist.. XD

Alright~ After all that is said and... not yet done.. The practical part is always the most challenging har.. hehe.. Writing it down somehow helps you set a standard for things that you wanna do.. Better than just saying and then forgetting about it~ So I'll learn as I go I suppose..And so should you!! haha.. We should all strive to be a better person than who we were in 2009..

2010 will mark the beginning~~~~ of the beginning!!!!!!!! XD And since its the new year~ What better time to relax(which i'm dying to do right now after I finish off with my finals!!) & start things all over again~~ Weeeee~ xp

A mini stop

2009-12-03T16:49:00.004Z

Ahhhh~~~ A mini rest today..
After a hectic week...
I learned to appreciate free and easy time more often~
To rest for awhile.. Then prepare for another hectic week up ahead~

AMS-es~~ We must continue to push on!!! Its almost done~ Almost... ~~Then comes our finals..~~ Nah.. We'll worry bout that later la~ xp For now.. We must go go go!!!

Damaged hair

2009-11-29T14:14:00.004Z

Have you ever seen dry and frizzy straight hair before..??

No..??

Well~
Pay me a visit and I'll show you how it looks like~

T.T

Hair straightening has killed my hair~ Even more... huhu~~

It was fine for a few days... Before I washed it... After that... Boom!!! Ms Frizzy Messy hair arises.. haiz.. Maybe the chemicals were too strong for my hair.. Or the iron was too hot.. Or my hair was already dead from the start making it.. dead-er..?? haizzz..

So in order to "fight" or rather "heal" my hair... I got these~ First... @.@

Haiz....

Reconstructs and nourishes damaged hair in 10 days ha...

We shall test it...
Tomorrow will be day 1~

Haizzzz...
The point of getting my hair straighten is to keep it in good shape without much hassle yes..? Yes.. And now.. I think I have more hassle to deal with then before... Now I need to put on treatment cream.. Treatment oil... Argh!! I don't even do this on my natural hair~ Ughh.. Might as well go perm it... ishh...

Here's.. A before picture... And hopefully there would be much improvement in the after picture..

UGLY!!! DRY!!! FRIZZY!!! BWAH!!!!! T.T

I must really think through 10,000 times before doing my next rebonding..

A humble encounter

2009-11-23T14:35:00.003Z

But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong. He chose the lowly things of this world and the despised things—and the things that are not—to nullify the things that are, so that no one may boast before him.

1 Corinthians 1:27-29

I guess I had a full understanding of that verse in the past few days.. Some things that I've heard and seen just humbles me.. People that I think will not be able to achieve certain things achieved it and did far more better than I expected.. Not to say that I looked down on them before but I just didn't expect them to be who they are today..

This is certainly a lesson to not look down on others.. Or let pride get the better of you.. Each of us have strengths and weakness of our own.. Others may be good in doing the things we're weak at and we may be good in doing other things others are weak at.. We are not God that we have the right to judge others.. Seeing that we are not perfect ourselves..

God works in a pattern that very different from the world.. This is one of them.. God just likes to use insignificant people to throw significant people overboard ha... This is just like a message to self actually.. To learn to be humble and learn from people instead of criticizing and judging people.. Cause you'll never know.. one day.. The least expected person will have the greatest achievement~! because with God.. Anything is possible~ o.o hehe..

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Right... This next post is a little naggy... Little lengthy.. Perhaps boring even.. Some may not understand what I'm actually yapping about.. But... Do bare with me.. Sometimes I just need to do some.. "releasing" of.. "emotions".. XD I don't mind really.. If you do intend to skip this part.. hehe.. XP

I do have something to admit actually... I feel that.. I've been far from God.. He seems so silent these days.. These weeks.. And I've been really struggling through.. Internal struggle is so much harder than external problems.. Because to me it is the inside that generates what I can do on the outside.. With the inside running empty.. Its a struggle to have the outside looking and functioning as "normal"..

I have been... Very insecure lately.. About myself.. About what I can do.. About what I know.. Or rather what I don't know.. About God even.. Stress does not do me good because.. to be honest I don't really know how to handle stress and it can be a havoc to me.. And most of the time.. Its self caused.. haha.. @.@

And the funniest thing is a friend of mine just enlightened me that during my exam/assignment periods.. I tend to take deep breaths and sigh a lot... haha.. I don't even notice that.. Cis.. So when you see me sigh-ing a lot.. You'll know I'm under stress le ha.. haha.. I won't be as hyper as before on a daily basis..

Sometimes people think that.. Ooo.. You're been a Christian for so long~ You've lead this before.. Done that before~ You must be a very strong Christian.. Which is not entirely true.. Well yea some people will grow stronger.. But some.. will grow so used to the "routine" that the passion might starts to die off.. Knowledge becomes the basis of our Christianity, no longer the heart.. When there are expectations to meet and people to please.. Mushroom heads with empty hearts grow.. I'm not directing that to others.. But rather I feel it growing in myself..

New Christians do sometimes put me to shame.. Sadly.. xp
They may not have as much knowledge on Christianity but they have that trust, passion and fire and experience that.. cannot be memorized cannot be trained.. It is the matter of their heart.. And when I look back at her.. At how she expresses herself, her trust in Christ, her experiences.. It kinda reminds me of how.. I was.. How I used to be..

Now.. It seems that my priorities have been mixed.. So many distractions.. So many temptations.. Being a Christian is definitely not easy, but its not impossible.. Which reminds me of a poem.. haha.. Which I find very meaningful to me right now.. If you don't mind continue on reading more lengthy and repeated stuff... Be my guest~ XD

When I say ... I am a Christian.

I'm not shouting "I am saved."

I'm whispering "I get lost"

That is why I chose this way.